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so i havent updated in a while but a certain event that happened at crew today really pissed me off.
well... lets set the scene:
- team kenny is broken up for good... we all found out and basically accepted it. the girls that are still in the lightweight A boat seemed to actually be really excited about the departure of 2 of the remaining originals and became a really serious boat. thats all well and good but see i assumed we'd still be friends and hang out. i pictured like those bbqs we used to have and all the fun at the regattas.. back in the day when we went to crew to see each other, and rowing was just like something that happened on the side at practice. we never took rowing seriously... or like obsessed over erg scores or anything. it was so much fun.. until we started actually getting into crew more and started actually getting good. thats when it started to go downhill. and so now i am no longer in the lightweight A.. mainly because my erg scores werent so hot and well i only go to practice when i feel like it. haha but so assuming things would be cool between us, the girls that are now on V1 that used to be my boat seemed to be pissed that i came to their practice today (i am currently on V2). i was like alright whatever theyre just kinda arrogant cause im not in their boat but it will pass. but so after the row, i go to talk to one of the girls that used to be one of my best crew friends and we used to hang out all the time and she just being really bitchy to me and super mean and said something that really just pissed me off. and its upseting to think that the girls feel like they are superior to me and arent my friends anymore. i mean we used to be tight. we had so much fun all the time and now its like all that is gone and all they care about is crew. i mean thats fine and all, its good to be determined to win. but not to the point where you show complete disregard to someone that used to be your close friend.
i just really cant believe what happened... they have become cliquey and they definitely feel like they are better than me and the other girls. i really hate it and because of that i feel like the girls i felt the closest to just completely turned on me. at least ive still got jess. if it werent for her id quit crew so fast. im still thinking about quiting and today just made me want to walk up to ryan and be like IM THROUGH WITH THIS! jess and i decided to see how it goes tomorrow and such then i think i might make a decision whether i want to keep crew up or quit. i hope it doesnt come to me quitting but i dont know if i could deal with this for a whole season.
i dont want to end on a sad note so...
ITS SPRING BREAK!!! WOOOOOOOOOOO!!! YEAHHH
have fun in italy jesso!!
well... lets set the scene:
- team kenny is broken up for good... we all found out and basically accepted it. the girls that are still in the lightweight A boat seemed to actually be really excited about the departure of 2 of the remaining originals and became a really serious boat. thats all well and good but see i assumed we'd still be friends and hang out. i pictured like those bbqs we used to have and all the fun at the regattas.. back in the day when we went to crew to see each other, and rowing was just like something that happened on the side at practice. we never took rowing seriously... or like obsessed over erg scores or anything. it was so much fun.. until we started actually getting into crew more and started actually getting good. thats when it started to go downhill. and so now i am no longer in the lightweight A.. mainly because my erg scores werent so hot and well i only go to practice when i feel like it. haha but so assuming things would be cool between us, the girls that are now on V1 that used to be my boat seemed to be pissed that i came to their practice today (i am currently on V2). i was like alright whatever theyre just kinda arrogant cause im not in their boat but it will pass. but so after the row, i go to talk to one of the girls that used to be one of my best crew friends and we used to hang out all the time and she just being really bitchy to me and super mean and said something that really just pissed me off. and its upseting to think that the girls feel like they are superior to me and arent my friends anymore. i mean we used to be tight. we had so much fun all the time and now its like all that is gone and all they care about is crew. i mean thats fine and all, its good to be determined to win. but not to the point where you show complete disregard to someone that used to be your close friend.
i just really cant believe what happened... they have become cliquey and they definitely feel like they are better than me and the other girls. i really hate it and because of that i feel like the girls i felt the closest to just completely turned on me. at least ive still got jess. if it werent for her id quit crew so fast. im still thinking about quiting and today just made me want to walk up to ryan and be like IM THROUGH WITH THIS! jess and i decided to see how it goes tomorrow and such then i think i might make a decision whether i want to keep crew up or quit. i hope it doesnt come to me quitting but i dont know if i could deal with this for a whole season.
i dont want to end on a sad note so...
ITS SPRING BREAK!!! WOOOOOOOOOOO!!! YEAHHH
have fun in italy jesso!!