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To everyone, they have more than more mistake. Some can be bigger than others or some could be just small. I tend to go for the more bigger mistakes. I don't think as well as I thought I use too. Or maybe people just don't want to believe it. Thats right, people stop believing and start forgetting. Maybe cause the truth is far more difficult to face, or maybe they just don't want to face it alone. I've faced my biggest mistake alone and no one was there, well I suppose maybe, but I don't remember.
I know your body gets numb, you can't see anything, even if its in light. I know your head starts to hurt and it gets annoying. You talk to someone, they ask you whats wrong, but the words don't seem like it'd make any sense to them. Or maybe they just don't want to listen or better yet, they don't care. Maybe they do, they just don't know how to show it. So your the one to get punished for the mistake. You know in the back of your mind it was. But here is where everything gets tricky...
You got more than one person to prove your worth a damn. But if you play the wrong card, you get dealt out. Then what? You start working on your game, figuring out what move to play next. You study every persons expression. You wonder in the back of your mind if they think the same way about you as some do. Or are they just playing the game with you cause they know they'll win.
Its like a cat and mouse game. You'll stay up nights at a time without sleep. You'll work your mind till you sick to your stomach and food looks worse than ever. You keep thinking and thinking but its not good enough. You keep planning and planning your next move but who knows if they'll buy it or not. So now it gets more tricky....
Do you risk everything...OR do you let it go, cause you know you can't ever win it back? In their minds they believe that have you now figured out, but they don't. They expect so much from you and a simple mistake coast you everything. Or maybe not everything, just a small part of your life. Now your their puppet and your attached by string and you got no where to run. Cause if you run, your wrong, but if you stay you got more to prove.
BUT, people say "You don't have to prove yourself to nobody." Thats what parents always teach their kids. It's not true though, cause you do. Your heart beats faster, your eyes get tired and your mind slips away. Now what... your stuck once again. But this is life... you don't get what you want and your not always dealt the best cards. IF you play by the rules you'll lose but if you break them, you'll lose. They never said life was easy, they said it was a bitch. Right they are.
I know your body gets numb, you can't see anything, even if its in light. I know your head starts to hurt and it gets annoying. You talk to someone, they ask you whats wrong, but the words don't seem like it'd make any sense to them. Or maybe they just don't want to listen or better yet, they don't care. Maybe they do, they just don't know how to show it. So your the one to get punished for the mistake. You know in the back of your mind it was. But here is where everything gets tricky...
You got more than one person to prove your worth a damn. But if you play the wrong card, you get dealt out. Then what? You start working on your game, figuring out what move to play next. You study every persons expression. You wonder in the back of your mind if they think the same way about you as some do. Or are they just playing the game with you cause they know they'll win.
Its like a cat and mouse game. You'll stay up nights at a time without sleep. You'll work your mind till you sick to your stomach and food looks worse than ever. You keep thinking and thinking but its not good enough. You keep planning and planning your next move but who knows if they'll buy it or not. So now it gets more tricky....
Do you risk everything...OR do you let it go, cause you know you can't ever win it back? In their minds they believe that have you now figured out, but they don't. They expect so much from you and a simple mistake coast you everything. Or maybe not everything, just a small part of your life. Now your their puppet and your attached by string and you got no where to run. Cause if you run, your wrong, but if you stay you got more to prove.
BUT, people say "You don't have to prove yourself to nobody." Thats what parents always teach their kids. It's not true though, cause you do. Your heart beats faster, your eyes get tired and your mind slips away. Now what... your stuck once again. But this is life... you don't get what you want and your not always dealt the best cards. IF you play by the rules you'll lose but if you break them, you'll lose. They never said life was easy, they said it was a bitch. Right they are.