Jabber.

[youknowido]

So this weekend I got distant.
Distant for hope and my own reasons.
I dont want to say it was a slap in the face,
I'd like to say it was everything my mind made it out to be.
Unfortuantly not.
It wasnt horrible, It was a scene.

HELLO MIND.
It has openend my eyes to many realizations.
I know I know, Im so young right?
Right well becoming an "adult" at the end of this year,
really helps my head sort a few things out.

Im moving in June and I think im ready.
Besides leaving my best friend and the other
8 people who I cant imagine not having there for me
or seeing them daily could really tear me down.

But my heart and my life is in Colorado.

I know this is what needs to be done
I know this is what needs to happen
I know this is what I really want.

But me, I have this problem......
I make up what I want in my head.
I'll picture the future to be this way;
Right well, I've never had any of those "picture's" mirrored.
Always worse.
Never better.

But even if what we've planned
and even if what I see
doesnt happen the way it needs to...

I will find a way without.