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it has really hit me that i am never home. between play rehearsals, work, and trying to maintain some sort of social life i really just have no time to relax. so yesterday i went to school, then rehearsal, and left early to go straight to work. i got home at 10 30, and attempted to do work. but i just fell asleep. today was school and rehearsal, and i am just so drained. all i want to do is lay down in a dark room and just chill with some blankets. but i have an entire english project to do. one of those projects where it was assigned today, is due tomorrow. one of those projects thats SUPPOSED to be a group project, but you really end up doing a good percent of the work.
so i say to myself, screw this. ill worry about it tomorrow morning. and that seems to work for me.
in other news, my parents really question my future. i get it. i understand that it is more than difficult to be a theater or music major and still be able to make a living. i understnad that it would be much easier to be safe and major in business, or education, or law. and maybe just "do theater on the side for fun". "cant you just study something NORMAL, and just maybe be in the school play? can't you just be in the choir because its fun for you?". there are three types of musicians/actors. musicians/actors who are forced to do it [either by themselves or relatives or whoever else], musicians/actors who do it because they really enjoy it, and musicians/actors who feel like their life revolves around it. for me its not a hobby, its not something i do in my spare time. i MAKE time for singing, i MAKE time for the play. its what i want to do with myself. i am very sorry that my parents for some reason cant accept and/or don't understand this. but sitting in a white office soley living to stare at that incredibly slow ticking second hand and watching little community plays on weekends is not going to be good enough. "but youll end up being a waitress... it makes no sense!". hey, being a waitress and trying to reach my goals is better than living in regret for the rest of my life.
so SUCK ONNNNN that. haha.
the play is coming up rapidamente. as is the prom [i have a date! yeaaaah!]. as is the SUMMER! YEAAAH! im so excited about life right now.
so i say to myself, screw this. ill worry about it tomorrow morning. and that seems to work for me.
in other news, my parents really question my future. i get it. i understand that it is more than difficult to be a theater or music major and still be able to make a living. i understnad that it would be much easier to be safe and major in business, or education, or law. and maybe just "do theater on the side for fun". "cant you just study something NORMAL, and just maybe be in the school play? can't you just be in the choir because its fun for you?". there are three types of musicians/actors. musicians/actors who are forced to do it [either by themselves or relatives or whoever else], musicians/actors who do it because they really enjoy it, and musicians/actors who feel like their life revolves around it. for me its not a hobby, its not something i do in my spare time. i MAKE time for singing, i MAKE time for the play. its what i want to do with myself. i am very sorry that my parents for some reason cant accept and/or don't understand this. but sitting in a white office soley living to stare at that incredibly slow ticking second hand and watching little community plays on weekends is not going to be good enough. "but youll end up being a waitress... it makes no sense!". hey, being a waitress and trying to reach my goals is better than living in regret for the rest of my life.
so SUCK ONNNNN that. haha.
the play is coming up rapidamente. as is the prom [i have a date! yeaaaah!]. as is the SUMMER! YEAAAH! im so excited about life right now.