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I know this is bad, but I'm started get all these feelings of resentment towards my mother, I just can't help it. Whenever she talks I just want to say "SHUT UP!". She's so gloomy and pessimistic, but not in an obvious way. Whenever I'm excited by something, she's always trying to kill it. This has happened so many times. She's annoying and she has bad hygiene, for instance she only showers a few times a week. She lets the catbox get so filled with crap it's disgusting. I dont' let that happen anymore though, I scoop it out everyday. And today, after I walked in after throwing the poop-bag in the dumpster, she had just gotten home from work and she was sitting with her hands behind her head. I could smell her sweat. I felt like gagging. Apparently she's too lazy to use deoderant! She lets the house get really dirty, and half of the time I'm the one cleaning the place. There's stains of various things all over the living room floor. I already miss living with my dad, at least he left me alone.

I feel sick, there's even less healthy food here and at my dads. I'm pissed because my dad was supposed to be helping her out with grocery, by giving her like 200 bucks a month. HE CAN DO THIS. He makes quite alot of money, but he isn't going to. I can already tell. And when I can get a job, she's going to be taking money out of my paycheck because my dad won't help.

I'm starting to hate them both, I just can't help but have these overwhelming feelings of resentment and anger towards the both of them. I need a shower.