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i kinda just wish that things could just workout for me for once...
i mean... im kinda stuck.
i love it that the house is back on the market, finally- i can get the hell outta this shit hole.
the problem has become this.........
we had a showing yesterday at 6:30... the people LOVED the house... they made an offer this morning...
we close on the 25th of march... normal, sounds like no problem...
the thing is, i feel like 2 months just isnt long enough to say bye to all of my friends... i know that sounds crazy, but im justnot sure i want to say bye to them at all. its gonna hurt me soo much, and i dont know what the hell to do about it anymore.. ugggh.
Raych and Ben are away at college, and i dont get to see them enough as it is... and to move its gonna kill me.
this new relationship and bond i have with corey... am i gonna have to give it up? he makes me so happy, and i can actually smile, a real smile around him. he makes me laugh, he makes me feel good about myself, he tells me im beautiful... do i really wanna have to give that up???
i know i have no choice in the matter, my family needs me, and i realized that a long time ago. this place makes me miserable... most ofthe people do too... buttheres just those few that i cant live without...
and if derek and sam decide they arent moving with us... i'll be devistated. uggggh. i duno, i look up to derek- hes like my best friend, and sam... beautiful, loving, caring sam...shes my "sister-in-law- to be" i cant do without her, shes like my best friend next to randi andmom.
Godddddd... if brendan doesnt move i'll fall apart...
i just wish i had the answers...but i guess i never will...
I'll miss you guys....March 25th is sooo much closer than it sounds....
i mean... im kinda stuck.
i love it that the house is back on the market, finally- i can get the hell outta this shit hole.
the problem has become this.........
we had a showing yesterday at 6:30... the people LOVED the house... they made an offer this morning...
we close on the 25th of march... normal, sounds like no problem...
the thing is, i feel like 2 months just isnt long enough to say bye to all of my friends... i know that sounds crazy, but im justnot sure i want to say bye to them at all. its gonna hurt me soo much, and i dont know what the hell to do about it anymore.. ugggh.
Raych and Ben are away at college, and i dont get to see them enough as it is... and to move its gonna kill me.
this new relationship and bond i have with corey... am i gonna have to give it up? he makes me so happy, and i can actually smile, a real smile around him. he makes me laugh, he makes me feel good about myself, he tells me im beautiful... do i really wanna have to give that up???
i know i have no choice in the matter, my family needs me, and i realized that a long time ago. this place makes me miserable... most ofthe people do too... buttheres just those few that i cant live without...
and if derek and sam decide they arent moving with us... i'll be devistated. uggggh. i duno, i look up to derek- hes like my best friend, and sam... beautiful, loving, caring sam...shes my "sister-in-law- to be" i cant do without her, shes like my best friend next to randi andmom.
Godddddd... if brendan doesnt move i'll fall apart...
i just wish i had the answers...but i guess i never will...
I'll miss you guys....March 25th is sooo much closer than it sounds....