I realized in time that it didn't mean anything.

[youhavemefoever]

you begin to realize you're in too deep
when you start to appreciate the flaws in someone

it's sort of frightening for a moment
wondering why you love the flaws

from their funny pronounciations
to their crooked fingers
& the area under their belly button
where there is just a pinch of tummy
& their inability to express what they feel..

however it's not the flaws that you love
it's the whole being in which these flaws combine to create

this is the time when accidents occur
when our vision is altered

we lie to ourselves
& we say it is for the best

though one may assume we were on the same level
i don't think i will ever be able to express how i felt..feel

i'm standing my ground & remaining true to myself
i can do it. i just wish i didn't have to

we did the math..it wasn't worth it after all

the last you'll hear me speak of this.