I'm givin' up on love, cause love's givin up on me

[youfrustrateme]

So the big question is... what the HELL happened to my life? Where did my priorities go? Last night with him I felt like my personality switched gears entirely and I was once again that empowered girl from last summer. Over the past year I've accomplished next to nothing. I worked my ASS off and my grades don't represent that. I'm not happy. Am I? What's important - success or happiness? Age old question. It's lame to have to resort to writing about something that has been written about so many times. Happiness- obviously- but isn't it all relative? What makes you happy one day might not make you happy the next. And it is impossible for me to be happy unless everyone around me is. I don't know how to get around that. Years of therapy? My point is I can't be happy doing this but success isn't that important to me either. I need fulfillment.

Religion?

I blame my parents. But I can't do that forever. I can't keep saying "It got lost." Someday I have to start saying "I lost it."