frozen tear drops
last night i woke up around 3am and i had an email from one of my bosses from michigan... when i gave my two weeks notice she was very angry at me and didnt talk to me my last 2 weeks at camp.. she was very stand-off ish towards me.. and my last day didnt even say goodbye... which, was okay i guess because i was a fucking wreck and was balling my eyes out.. it was just too emotional for me. so, getting an email from her was very unexpected and of course it made me cry. fuck i miss my job sooo much. i LOVE it here in illinois but i know i will never ever find a job i love and such amazing co workers as i had in michigan.
Courtney:
I had to e-mail you because I didn't get a chance to say good-bye. I am really no good at it, and when you left your last day at camp I saw that you suck at it also. I am way to emotional to ever display it in public. After seeing Peggy hug you to death I didn't know what to do. She felt so close to you to comfort you, and there I was just standing there like I didn't care.
I have to tell you that I do care, and it was so hard for me to see you go. You have a light that surrounds you. You make people happy, you entertain, you have the best sense of humor, and you are so COURTNEY, one of a kind. Don't ever lose your edge!
I miss you and hope you are happy. We miss you at camp.
Love ya,
Lisa
sidenote... on sunday while i was at work, i was in the giant freezer sorting breads and such and i starting unconciously singing this one song... and a few minutes into it i realized what i had been singing... and it was a song 3 of my kindergardners had tought me this past year at school... i so vividly remember that day... we were sitting by the computers and they were showing me this one program that allowed them to create moving pictures and there was this background song and they made me sing it with them for like 2 hours.. and their little faces were giggling so much while we were singing it...
and as i thought about this i began to cry... because i miss my kids so fucking much... i miss my job like no other... and i guess i didnt realize how much these kids touched my heart.... and about 15 minutes later i stepped out of the freezer and one single frozen tear that had been clinging onto my cheek melted and dripped to the floor. god i miss my kids.
Courtney:
I had to e-mail you because I didn't get a chance to say good-bye. I am really no good at it, and when you left your last day at camp I saw that you suck at it also. I am way to emotional to ever display it in public. After seeing Peggy hug you to death I didn't know what to do. She felt so close to you to comfort you, and there I was just standing there like I didn't care.
I have to tell you that I do care, and it was so hard for me to see you go. You have a light that surrounds you. You make people happy, you entertain, you have the best sense of humor, and you are so COURTNEY, one of a kind. Don't ever lose your edge!
I miss you and hope you are happy. We miss you at camp.
Love ya,
Lisa
sidenote... on sunday while i was at work, i was in the giant freezer sorting breads and such and i starting unconciously singing this one song... and a few minutes into it i realized what i had been singing... and it was a song 3 of my kindergardners had tought me this past year at school... i so vividly remember that day... we were sitting by the computers and they were showing me this one program that allowed them to create moving pictures and there was this background song and they made me sing it with them for like 2 hours.. and their little faces were giggling so much while we were singing it...
and as i thought about this i began to cry... because i miss my kids so fucking much... i miss my job like no other... and i guess i didnt realize how much these kids touched my heart.... and about 15 minutes later i stepped out of the freezer and one single frozen tear that had been clinging onto my cheek melted and dripped to the floor. god i miss my kids.