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i don't know, i have a lot to say but i'm not quite sure how to. lately it seems like i've been alienating myself more than usual with my sometimes unnecessary negativity. it just seems like i've always been negative but i've been pushing it more and more seeing how much i could actually get away with. this week it finally blew up and a few people who i considered friends finally decided they had had enough of my shit. i think it's gotten to the point where i'm so used to saying literally anything that popped in my head and it's a very difficult process to reverse. speaking your mind completely is amazing but it has a lot of drawbacks and it's actually quite selfish when it hurts other people. i realize this. from now on i'm going to try very very hard to be respectable and to be a person others can relate to and actually like, not just put up with. i'm just sorry for all the things i've said and done in a vain attempt to bring others down. i don't know how many people read this but just expect a lot of personality reforms on my part.