Update..
Lindsay made a good point. Everyone reacts in a different way, we all were connected to him in different ways. I'll try to explain what I'm feeling.
I'd be lying if I said I was happy. I'm trying to hide how much it hurts, it's just so hard. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I'm so lost right now and I don't know where to turn.
He was so perfect, I told him I wouldn't know what to do without him, and now that he's gone I can't even begin to explain how much it hurts.
I wish there was something I could do. All I can do is remember all the times we spent together. Everything reminds me of him around here, and I've been trying to get out of the house to get it off my mind, but it never fades. Every room I'm in holds a memory. There's so much I wish I could have said to him, so many things I wish I could have done. I try not to regret anything but I can't help feel like there was some way to prevent this. When I told him I loved him, I ment it sincerly everytime I said it.
The only thing that's kept my spirits up are knowing he's safe, and knowing that he really did love me to. I talked to Mike (glaser, his best friend) who told me that he regreted ever hurting me, and that these past few weeks all he wanted was to be with me again, and love me like he used to. Even his friend Zach, who I barely know said something similar. They said he never felt that way about someone, and I was the only girl he ever loved. It hurts to know I can never tell him how much that means to me, but I know he's smiling down from heaven knowing that I'll never stop caring about him.
A lot of people have been concerened for my mental status and saftey, and I would just like to clear something up. I have not hurt myself, nor do I ever intend to again. I know how bad it hurt him in the past, and even though he's gone it's made me realize how much people take life for granted, and hurting myself is no way to appreciate that. I am done with self injury, and everytime I feel that urge I remind myself that he's watching over me, and wanting me to be safe. My guardian Angel, my sweet Andrew. I will never, ever forget everything you've done for me.
I know he's safe. He's up there in Shangri-la in peace, livin' it up. Karen will keep him safe, and Gram, and I bet he's got a watchful eye over little Sebastian. Even though he's gone, people are always going to care for him.
Andrew, you will be missed more than you'd ever know. We'll be together again someday. Someday I'll hold you, and kiss you again. You will always have my heart, and you'll never be forgotten. I love you so much Andy, I don't know what I'm going to do without you. Sweet dreams my angel, please watch over all of us and keep us strong.
I'd be lying if I said I was happy. I'm trying to hide how much it hurts, it's just so hard. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I'm so lost right now and I don't know where to turn.
He was so perfect, I told him I wouldn't know what to do without him, and now that he's gone I can't even begin to explain how much it hurts.
I wish there was something I could do. All I can do is remember all the times we spent together. Everything reminds me of him around here, and I've been trying to get out of the house to get it off my mind, but it never fades. Every room I'm in holds a memory. There's so much I wish I could have said to him, so many things I wish I could have done. I try not to regret anything but I can't help feel like there was some way to prevent this. When I told him I loved him, I ment it sincerly everytime I said it.
The only thing that's kept my spirits up are knowing he's safe, and knowing that he really did love me to. I talked to Mike (glaser, his best friend) who told me that he regreted ever hurting me, and that these past few weeks all he wanted was to be with me again, and love me like he used to. Even his friend Zach, who I barely know said something similar. They said he never felt that way about someone, and I was the only girl he ever loved. It hurts to know I can never tell him how much that means to me, but I know he's smiling down from heaven knowing that I'll never stop caring about him.
A lot of people have been concerened for my mental status and saftey, and I would just like to clear something up. I have not hurt myself, nor do I ever intend to again. I know how bad it hurt him in the past, and even though he's gone it's made me realize how much people take life for granted, and hurting myself is no way to appreciate that. I am done with self injury, and everytime I feel that urge I remind myself that he's watching over me, and wanting me to be safe. My guardian Angel, my sweet Andrew. I will never, ever forget everything you've done for me.
I know he's safe. He's up there in Shangri-la in peace, livin' it up. Karen will keep him safe, and Gram, and I bet he's got a watchful eye over little Sebastian. Even though he's gone, people are always going to care for him.
Andrew, you will be missed more than you'd ever know. We'll be together again someday. Someday I'll hold you, and kiss you again. You will always have my heart, and you'll never be forgotten. I love you so much Andy, I don't know what I'm going to do without you. Sweet dreams my angel, please watch over all of us and keep us strong.