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i wrote about my day with lizz, rome and andrew but lizz said I didnt use enough adjectives to describe our adventure so i deleted it. i really want to remember this day but i'm too depressed at the moment...I think i need to stop smoking pot because i see things to clearly when i am stoned and it makes me very depressed because I don't want to see the reality...which makes no sense at all because usually it is the other way around. whatever. today was surreal and it couldnt have been better, honestly, but something inside of myself would not let me enjoy it as much as I should have. something is missing from my life and i think i know what it is and i want it back. maybe my weekend was just alittle too much fun...fuck, i've got some serious baggage. whatever color i used to wear, it was alot lighter than this.