I'm sick of and I miss...
I'm really sick of unnecessary drama and the fact that my friends don't get along. It's annoying to hear people talk about my friends behind their backs and expect me to nod and rant along with them. Instead I try not to make any more drama and just shrug. I'm sick of obligations and I'm sick of egos. I'm sick of money...sick of it. I'm scared about my major. I'm scared about Roger's class. I'm not smart enough. I can't do it. This shit just doesn't come naturally to me. I'm sick of not having any music major friends and consequently being awkward and lonely in every class but Rogers. I'm sick of feeling like the dumbest one, the most mediocre musician. I'm sick of feeling lonely, especially, and I'm sick of working at BCEP for minimum wage, 6 hours a week. I'm sick of being so fucking busy. I'm sick of this stupid cold I have. I'm sick of not getting the response I want from certain people. I'm sick of being used, or played off as a pawn. I'm sick of looking like a slut.
I miss working at Giggles. I miss not caring and I miss the way it was last year. I miss certain people. I miss the nineties! I miss Kathy....I miss Amber and Pat and Brian, and I miss feeling like I was worth something. I miss Jayce, though I hate to admit it. I miss snuggling. I miss L and T...however long ago it may have been. Everyone was much less dramatic then. I miss being needed. I miss having a radio in my car. I miss feeling loved.....
I'm having a bummer day. Ignore me. Don't get me wrong, this semester is great, but it's just one step closer to the real world and it's scaring me away more and more every day. Someone rescue me from the dramatic monotony.....
I miss working at Giggles. I miss not caring and I miss the way it was last year. I miss certain people. I miss the nineties! I miss Kathy....I miss Amber and Pat and Brian, and I miss feeling like I was worth something. I miss Jayce, though I hate to admit it. I miss snuggling. I miss L and T...however long ago it may have been. Everyone was much less dramatic then. I miss being needed. I miss having a radio in my car. I miss feeling loved.....
I'm having a bummer day. Ignore me. Don't get me wrong, this semester is great, but it's just one step closer to the real world and it's scaring me away more and more every day. Someone rescue me from the dramatic monotony.....