Spent his whole life being too young...
Last night may have been the best night of summer. Everyone was saying how they were waiting for parties like that to happen. It was Michael's birthday... & absolutely amazing. We all were there forever, went out to eat & all.
Most hilarious games of Halo EVER. Played alot of pool with...HOLYCRAP, TIM! Who is in fact, closing his house & will be here for the week. I cried way too much last night, though. He keeps coming back, & I get re-attached--especially after last night, & it all dazed me that he's leaving for real this time. That this is the last time we'll see him until he decides to come up next year or something.
Whenever I'm with Tim, I feel completely whole. Like no part of me is missing. He is the only thing that keeps us on our toes--tells us to "Quit with the sadness! Back with the joy!" And it works, too. But last night I could not keep smiling around him, I completely forgot the idea of life after death & being with him again.
Ricky had walked off into the dark to watch the stars, & I ended up going out there, & collasping into tears. We sat out there & talked for a long time, till about 2 AM when Alexa & Cat came outside to tell us we were gonna go to Lexas to sleep.
Otherwise, it was absolutely amazing. We ran around Georgetown Crossing for hours... formed hippie circles, played guitar ALL night in the middle of the street, rolled down grass hills, caught lightning bugs, played at the playground, sang our lungs out.
At one point, Alexa, Tim & I were all huddled where Mount Doom used to be, & she was playing I am Understood. We all sang it, for about the third time that night, at the top of our voices. I love how, even if we don't sound good at all, we sing to our fullest extent.
I could listen to Tim sing forever. You give & take away really pounded into my head when we were singing Blessed Be Your Name.
The heartache is so real, but with everyone there with me last night, realizing I had people that really DO love me for who I am, helped ALOT. I am so glad Alexa convinced me to go. I laughed so hard, & cried so hard, & it was the BEST combination ever.
If I could be like that
I would give anything
Just to live one day
in those shoes...
Most hilarious games of Halo EVER. Played alot of pool with...HOLYCRAP, TIM! Who is in fact, closing his house & will be here for the week. I cried way too much last night, though. He keeps coming back, & I get re-attached--especially after last night, & it all dazed me that he's leaving for real this time. That this is the last time we'll see him until he decides to come up next year or something.
Whenever I'm with Tim, I feel completely whole. Like no part of me is missing. He is the only thing that keeps us on our toes--tells us to "Quit with the sadness! Back with the joy!" And it works, too. But last night I could not keep smiling around him, I completely forgot the idea of life after death & being with him again.
Ricky had walked off into the dark to watch the stars, & I ended up going out there, & collasping into tears. We sat out there & talked for a long time, till about 2 AM when Alexa & Cat came outside to tell us we were gonna go to Lexas to sleep.
Otherwise, it was absolutely amazing. We ran around Georgetown Crossing for hours... formed hippie circles, played guitar ALL night in the middle of the street, rolled down grass hills, caught lightning bugs, played at the playground, sang our lungs out.
At one point, Alexa, Tim & I were all huddled where Mount Doom used to be, & she was playing I am Understood. We all sang it, for about the third time that night, at the top of our voices. I love how, even if we don't sound good at all, we sing to our fullest extent.
I could listen to Tim sing forever. You give & take away really pounded into my head when we were singing Blessed Be Your Name.
The heartache is so real, but with everyone there with me last night, realizing I had people that really DO love me for who I am, helped ALOT. I am so glad Alexa convinced me to go. I laughed so hard, & cried so hard, & it was the BEST combination ever.
If I could be like that
I would give anything
Just to live one day
in those shoes...