Re: this is how you make meaning | reply 1997 | joon hee/yoon jae(/shi won) | 3/4vergoldungAugust 19 2013, 03:01:56 UTC
so i'd like to start of this comment by saying I DON'T THINK I'M READY FOR THIS honestly i was never going to be ready but really i didn't think i would be shaking because of that, good job bro.
as an apology for something he probably hasn't fully realized nope i do not want yoonjae feeling do not give them to me ugghhhhhh this is not nice of you
Not that day, some other day, in a long list of days, because there just aren't enough excuses that don't sound like excuses, that don't sound like, I'm scared of your heart beating in sync with mine, my lips against yours. R E A L L Y you went there of course you did i knew that's what i was in for why do i keep forgetting that this is the reason i needed you to watch this mothereffing show in the first place but idk maybe i keep forgetting that this is everything i ever wanted BECAUSE IT FUCKING HURTS LIKE AGONY
And tries to remember the instructions for CPR, how hard he can't press because that could mean death. LAUGHING SO HARD RIGHT NOW BECAUSE OF HOW GPOY THIS IS LIKE IT LITERALLY JUST TOLD ALEX HOW I WAS SLOWLY SLOWLY READING UP MY WAY TO THIS BIGGER PART BECAUSE I'M 100% CONVINCED THAT IT'S PLOTTING MY DEATH. (precision : that laugh is a hollow one)
Details that don't involve the angle of Yoon Jae's tie and the square feet of distance between them. UGH WHY ARE YOU PERFECT WHY ARE YOU SERIOUSLY I JUST TRULY HATE YOU AND REGRET EVER ASSOCIATING WITH YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE (nvr)
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NONONO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOW DO YOU LIVE WITH YOURSELF BEING SO CRUEL THIS IS THE TEST AND HE FAILED IT YEARS AGO AND PRETENDING WAS THE ONLY WAY TO DRAW IT OUT A LITTLE LONGER ALWAYS A LITTLE LONGER FORTY SECONDS LONGER FUCK I LOATHE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART LIKE HOW CAN YOU PUT ME IN THIS MUCH PAIN AND NOT EXPECT ME TO HAND YOU A DIVORCE I MEAN Pretending he still deserves the second-place seat, still deserves to be a desk's distance away from this boy. OMG ARE YOU FOR REAL OH YES YOU ARE FOR REAL AND YOU AREN'T PLAYING IT COOL
w h a t DID YOU JUST INVENT A SHIWON WRINKLE ON YOONJAE'S FACE IS THIS A THING THAT'S HAPPENING.... omfg i am not cut out for this nope nope nope AND OMGGGGGG YOONJAE IS THE WORST WORST WORST HE DESERVES ALL THE WRINKLES EVER KILL HIM WITH WRINKLES PLS /creys
he. lives. off. averages. ONLY YOU ONLY YOU ONLY YOUUUUU IN MY HEART I'M SO HELPLESS YOU COULD PROBABLY DO WHATEVER YOU WANTED WITH ME AND I WOULD EXECUTE MYSELF WITH A DAZZED SMILE. FML.
accidental. It isn't anticipation tying his stomach in hard knots. He can't allow for anticipation, because that messes up the equation, that messes up the randomness of events, and brings an order, it brings the illusion of possibility to an impossibility, and it wouldn't be an accident anymore, one of these days, and the day after that, and every day after that. And Joon Hee-- Joon Hee was second place, but Joon Hee was never stupid. THERE ARE NEVER ENOUGH WORDS FOR HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU NOTHING COMES CLOSE TO YOUR EVILNESS LIKE I CAN'T EVEN PUT MY FEELINGS INTO WORDS THIS IS HELL
Yoon Jae isn't uncomfortable. Yoon Jae is never uncomfortable. Joon Hee is not in love with Shi Won and Yoon Jae is never uncomfortable anymore. SCREAMING CRYING KICKING NO NO NONO YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED YOU'RE JUST NOT ALLOWED NOT FUCKING ALLOWED JESUS FUCKING CHRIST NO THIS IS THE WORST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE TO ME YOU'RE LYING HE'S LYING EVERYBODY IS WRONG AND NOTHING ABOUT THIS IS PRETTY AND I WANT TO CURL UP AND DIE................................
god i'm so done with you and them i just hate everything ok this is unbearable
Not enough to make him run, but enough to make him stand just a little further away, so maybe Joon Hee can fall outside the field of his gravity. lol in your dreams joonhee, yoonjae is a million times too selfish to ever allow that ever
It's impossible to make meaning from comfort. F U CKKK i refuse this oh fuck fuck fuck this is actually disgusting you are disgusting why are you so good at what you do JUDGING MY PAST LIFE CHOICES SO HARD RIGHT NOW why did i ever think god i am so NAIVE
that last paragraph.... c r e y i n g and sorry but idek how to do words anymore just go away pls pls pls
as an apology for something he probably hasn't fully realized
nope i do not want yoonjae feeling do not give them to me ugghhhhhh this is not nice of you
Not that day, some other day, in a long list of days, because there just aren't enough excuses that don't sound like excuses, that don't sound like, I'm scared of your heart beating in sync with mine, my lips against yours.
R E A L L Y
you went there of course you did i knew that's what i was in for why do i keep forgetting that this is the reason i needed you to watch this mothereffing show in the first place but idk maybe i keep forgetting that this is everything i ever wanted BECAUSE IT FUCKING HURTS LIKE AGONY
And tries to remember the instructions for CPR, how hard he can't press because that could mean death.
LAUGHING SO HARD RIGHT NOW BECAUSE OF HOW GPOY THIS IS LIKE IT LITERALLY JUST TOLD ALEX HOW I WAS SLOWLY SLOWLY READING UP MY WAY TO THIS BIGGER PART BECAUSE I'M 100% CONVINCED THAT IT'S PLOTTING MY DEATH. (precision : that laugh is a hollow one)
Details that don't involve the angle of Yoon Jae's tie and the square feet of distance between them.
UGH WHY ARE YOU PERFECT WHY ARE YOU SERIOUSLY I JUST TRULY HATE YOU AND REGRET EVER ASSOCIATING WITH YOU IN THE FIRST PLACE (nvr)
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NONONO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOW DO YOU LIVE WITH YOURSELF BEING SO CRUEL THIS IS THE TEST AND HE FAILED IT YEARS AGO AND PRETENDING WAS THE ONLY WAY TO DRAW IT OUT A LITTLE LONGER ALWAYS A LITTLE LONGER FORTY SECONDS LONGER FUCK I LOATHE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART LIKE HOW CAN YOU PUT ME IN THIS MUCH PAIN AND NOT EXPECT ME TO HAND YOU A DIVORCE I MEAN Pretending he still deserves the second-place seat, still deserves to be a desk's distance away from this boy. OMG ARE YOU FOR REAL OH YES YOU ARE FOR REAL AND YOU AREN'T PLAYING IT COOL
w h a t DID YOU JUST INVENT A SHIWON WRINKLE ON YOONJAE'S FACE IS THIS A THING THAT'S HAPPENING.... omfg i am not cut out for this nope nope nope
AND OMGGGGGG YOONJAE IS THE WORST WORST WORST HE DESERVES ALL THE WRINKLES EVER KILL HIM WITH WRINKLES PLS /creys
he. lives. off. averages. ONLY YOU ONLY YOU ONLY YOUUUUU IN MY HEART I'M SO HELPLESS YOU COULD PROBABLY DO WHATEVER YOU WANTED WITH ME AND I WOULD EXECUTE MYSELF WITH A DAZZED SMILE. FML.
accidental. It isn't anticipation tying his stomach in hard knots. He can't allow for anticipation, because that messes up the equation, that messes up the randomness of events, and brings an order, it brings the illusion of possibility to an impossibility, and it wouldn't be an accident anymore, one of these days, and the day after that, and every day after that. And Joon Hee-- Joon Hee was second place, but Joon Hee was never stupid.
THERE ARE NEVER ENOUGH WORDS FOR HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU NOTHING COMES CLOSE TO YOUR EVILNESS LIKE I CAN'T EVEN PUT MY FEELINGS INTO WORDS THIS IS HELL
Yoon Jae isn't uncomfortable. Yoon Jae is never uncomfortable. Joon Hee is not in love with Shi Won and Yoon Jae is never uncomfortable anymore.
SCREAMING CRYING KICKING NO NO NONO YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED YOU'RE JUST NOT ALLOWED NOT FUCKING ALLOWED JESUS FUCKING CHRIST NO THIS IS THE WORST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE TO ME YOU'RE LYING HE'S LYING EVERYBODY IS WRONG AND NOTHING ABOUT THIS IS PRETTY AND I WANT TO CURL UP AND DIE................................
god i'm so done with you and them i just hate everything ok this is unbearable
Not enough to make him run, but enough to make him stand just a little further away, so maybe Joon Hee can fall outside the field of his gravity.
lol in your dreams joonhee, yoonjae is a million times too selfish to ever allow that ever
It's impossible to make meaning from comfort.
F U CKKK i refuse this oh fuck fuck fuck this is actually disgusting you are disgusting why are you so good at what you do JUDGING MY PAST LIFE CHOICES SO HARD RIGHT NOW why did i ever think god i am so NAIVE
that last paragraph....
c r e y i n g
and sorry but idek how to do words anymore just go away pls pls pls
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