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[youarebeautiful]

ok, seriously.
talk to whoever you want.
I'm not going to be that crazy girl I KNOW you want me to be.

I'm not like that...at all.
ask anyone who knows me.

but I would like to be treated with some respect, and not ignored whenever I walk into the same room as you.

i wish you would hurry up and leave my damn state so I can forget this whole mess.

ugh.  I guess you got what you want and now you're done.
awesome.
and to think, I told some of my friends "This one is different."

fuck that.  you're no different.

NOTE TO ALL BOYS:

until you all realize I'm sanest, sweetest, most normal girl you have ever met, i will be terminally single.
every guy i have ever been involved with tells me the same thing...

"I WISH I MET YOU 10 YEARS FROM NOW BECAUSE I CAN SEE MYSELF MARRYING YOU.  BUT I CAN'T DO THAT RIGHT NOW..."

i wish I could be those girls that get jealous.
those girls that take their clothes off to get guys to look at them.

for once, I want to know what it feels like to be wanted on a strictly physical level.

but I never will.
so FUCK IT.