We can't be friends. Cuz I'm still in love...with you.
Last week had to have been the crazzzziiiiessssst week of the summer AT LEAST.
Well let's see what I can remember and let's see what my brain chose to forget.
I think it was either monday or tuesday I went to the bar during the strom. Or should I say bars. I dunno there's just something great about having it thunder and lightning while you're downing a budlight. It was fun just talking and pretending to care about the yankees...but then in the middle of switching bars it was raining really badly and very windy and kinda scary actually. I got caught outside under some roof down in sono and couldn't get to my car because of all the rain. Silly me for wearing white heh. So I was stuck outside for a bit taking chances and running to the nearest roof and making my way to my car.
The movie theatre parking lot was completely flooded the rain was literally ankle deep and some girl was running and completely fell...people took their shoes off and rain for safety it was crazy. Thank goodness I was at least drunk. Then I finally took a chance and ran to my car and decided to drive to stop and shop to get food. Of course the roads were flooded and I had to turn around and I'm going to say there wre two fallen trees so I almost died like twice.
At this point my phone is ringing at least a gazillion times and of course I have no idea because I'm trying to focus on the road. So I get to stop and shop forever and realize I had 9 missed calls...hmmm. Thunderstorms are omens...that was the only thing I liked...the poeticism.
Anywho to make a long story short...I hurt at LEAST 3 people that I care about extremely and I'm sorry...and I neverrrrr want to go through that again and the best thing I can do for MYSELF and everyone else is...move on and ESPECIALLY let go. I can't keep doing this back and forth thing...it's been going on for a year...I gotta accept that i'm prrrobably never going to be over you but I also need to accept that the fact is that doesn't mean I can't move on with someone else...and vice versa. We just need to stop making our lives harder than they need to be so yeah...
So after the rain and getting bitched out at on the phone at stop and shop and after sitting on the bench there for a good 30 minutes I grabbed my balls and went to go fix someone. And I did...maybe I got off easy...maybe I didn't...but...I learned a lot. Then after being left in the rain at stop and shop I semi-tried to fix someone else but of course...I broke him too many times and I've accepted the fact that he will be broken for a long...long...LONG...time...and there's nothing I can do to make him happy.
And then I tried to fix a really good friend of mine and I'm still in that process...things are better though I think? I never can tell. But I hope =)
Wow this entry is longer than I though.
So Timika calls me up after work and by this point I am like on no sleep due to the events of the night before so she calls me up and says we're going to a happy hour so there goes MY NAP...since it was her birthday...we went to rattlesnake and the bartender makes the comment on how I bring everyone there on their birthday haha I love it. So we can some free shots and drink and drink and drink. And eventually start walking for some reason...we had our deep conversations which we used to do every saturday but got lost in the drama that is our lives.
So for the first time ever we actually go into black bear and drink. I only dislike blackbear because IT'S ALWAYS CROWDED!! But anyway the bartender loved us...LOVED...and we got free shots and this random who was sitting at the other end of the bar bought us a round of drinks...like the do in the movies...haha it was great. Timika was sooOooOooooO trashed. I tried a black russian for the first time...I always wanted to...good stuff. So anyway I drag timika to porschia's house...where there is a BAR IN HER HOUSE. Timika's in the bathroom...uh...let's just say I've never seen anyone shit and throw up at the same time.
It was only 10ish so I decide to get a drink at the bar and take it to go hahah I am so having a bar in my house when I get one. So I of course go to best buy where some of my favorites were and they actually let me in the store after hours drunk off my ass yes...it was a good time. Events after that are kinda fuzzy...oh yes now I remember hahaha...I remember passing out due to all sorts of substances and being slapped around to wake up.
Thursday...a.k.a Fight Night...was just...beautiful. Not too many people went but that thursday was just one of the best. Nice...no drama...just pure fun and it doesn't matter to be who goes to rain or not...if you have that one special person with you then the rest doesn't even matter. Ha for the first time me and my sister ended up at the same club. She is really taking advantage of not having to watch her daughter for a month...I MISS MY NIECE DAMMIT!!!
Friday was BRYON'S HOUSE!! I LOVE BRYON'S HOUSE! The beer pong...the double cupping...the people...the bathroom...the bathrooom...THE BATHROOM...oh and it's just a great time. I love best buy. I love using my assets to distract the competition...nono...what's best is I don't get flak for it.
Saturday I attempted to watch Mr. MrsSmith but the disc kept fucking up...
Sunday was also a nice...nice night.
And I'll end this by saying how at work we have to keep track of what we sell and do some weird calculations to show how much the company spends on me to work like labor hours or whatever and how much I make the company...and let's just say...I am a huge asset to the fucking company...pay me more bitches. And I wanna be full-time and for some reason that doesn't happen...AND SOMEONE ELSE BECOMES FULL-TIME...I am going to have to go...everyone knows...no one deserves it more than this bitch right here. Word up. NOW TIME FOR 2 HRS OF SOAPS YES!!!
Well let's see what I can remember and let's see what my brain chose to forget.
I think it was either monday or tuesday I went to the bar during the strom. Or should I say bars. I dunno there's just something great about having it thunder and lightning while you're downing a budlight. It was fun just talking and pretending to care about the yankees...but then in the middle of switching bars it was raining really badly and very windy and kinda scary actually. I got caught outside under some roof down in sono and couldn't get to my car because of all the rain. Silly me for wearing white heh. So I was stuck outside for a bit taking chances and running to the nearest roof and making my way to my car.
The movie theatre parking lot was completely flooded the rain was literally ankle deep and some girl was running and completely fell...people took their shoes off and rain for safety it was crazy. Thank goodness I was at least drunk. Then I finally took a chance and ran to my car and decided to drive to stop and shop to get food. Of course the roads were flooded and I had to turn around and I'm going to say there wre two fallen trees so I almost died like twice.
At this point my phone is ringing at least a gazillion times and of course I have no idea because I'm trying to focus on the road. So I get to stop and shop forever and realize I had 9 missed calls...hmmm. Thunderstorms are omens...that was the only thing I liked...the poeticism.
Anywho to make a long story short...I hurt at LEAST 3 people that I care about extremely and I'm sorry...and I neverrrrr want to go through that again and the best thing I can do for MYSELF and everyone else is...move on and ESPECIALLY let go. I can't keep doing this back and forth thing...it's been going on for a year...I gotta accept that i'm prrrobably never going to be over you but I also need to accept that the fact is that doesn't mean I can't move on with someone else...and vice versa. We just need to stop making our lives harder than they need to be so yeah...
So after the rain and getting bitched out at on the phone at stop and shop and after sitting on the bench there for a good 30 minutes I grabbed my balls and went to go fix someone. And I did...maybe I got off easy...maybe I didn't...but...I learned a lot. Then after being left in the rain at stop and shop I semi-tried to fix someone else but of course...I broke him too many times and I've accepted the fact that he will be broken for a long...long...LONG...time...and there's nothing I can do to make him happy.
And then I tried to fix a really good friend of mine and I'm still in that process...things are better though I think? I never can tell. But I hope =)
Wow this entry is longer than I though.
So Timika calls me up after work and by this point I am like on no sleep due to the events of the night before so she calls me up and says we're going to a happy hour so there goes MY NAP...since it was her birthday...we went to rattlesnake and the bartender makes the comment on how I bring everyone there on their birthday haha I love it. So we can some free shots and drink and drink and drink. And eventually start walking for some reason...we had our deep conversations which we used to do every saturday but got lost in the drama that is our lives.
So for the first time ever we actually go into black bear and drink. I only dislike blackbear because IT'S ALWAYS CROWDED!! But anyway the bartender loved us...LOVED...and we got free shots and this random who was sitting at the other end of the bar bought us a round of drinks...like the do in the movies...haha it was great. Timika was sooOooOooooO trashed. I tried a black russian for the first time...I always wanted to...good stuff. So anyway I drag timika to porschia's house...where there is a BAR IN HER HOUSE. Timika's in the bathroom...uh...let's just say I've never seen anyone shit and throw up at the same time.
It was only 10ish so I decide to get a drink at the bar and take it to go hahah I am so having a bar in my house when I get one. So I of course go to best buy where some of my favorites were and they actually let me in the store after hours drunk off my ass yes...it was a good time. Events after that are kinda fuzzy...oh yes now I remember hahaha...I remember passing out due to all sorts of substances and being slapped around to wake up.
Thursday...a.k.a Fight Night...was just...beautiful. Not too many people went but that thursday was just one of the best. Nice...no drama...just pure fun and it doesn't matter to be who goes to rain or not...if you have that one special person with you then the rest doesn't even matter. Ha for the first time me and my sister ended up at the same club. She is really taking advantage of not having to watch her daughter for a month...I MISS MY NIECE DAMMIT!!!
Friday was BRYON'S HOUSE!! I LOVE BRYON'S HOUSE! The beer pong...the double cupping...the people...the bathroom...the bathrooom...THE BATHROOM...oh and it's just a great time. I love best buy. I love using my assets to distract the competition...nono...what's best is I don't get flak for it.
Saturday I attempted to watch Mr. MrsSmith but the disc kept fucking up...
Sunday was also a nice...nice night.
And I'll end this by saying how at work we have to keep track of what we sell and do some weird calculations to show how much the company spends on me to work like labor hours or whatever and how much I make the company...and let's just say...I am a huge asset to the fucking company...pay me more bitches. And I wanna be full-time and for some reason that doesn't happen...AND SOMEONE ELSE BECOMES FULL-TIME...I am going to have to go...everyone knows...no one deserves it more than this bitch right here. Word up. NOW TIME FOR 2 HRS OF SOAPS YES!!!