I’m gonna work at the artificial flower plant plant!
Maybe I am drunk....or maybe I'm not. Whatever the case is...I haven't written an entry in this piece of shit while under the influence in a while so maybe this will be fun. Probably not though. I don't give two shits. It is what it is and fuck you.
I went out drinking tonight. I went to SEVEN different bars in a matter of 5 hours. I danced, I drank, I did shots, I asked to be part of a band, I symphatized...just another night in Key West. Key West, Key West. I am homesick as shit right now. I am trying to figure out if I am happy or not and most of the time I think that I am not happy. I don't know. I love my job. I do, seriously. I love working at Jack Flats. I sometimes like working at Red Fish but not as much anymore. It's not like it used to be and it makes me sad. But there is something that is missing. Maybe it's the fact that I miss everyone. I miss all my friends back home. I miss my family, especially my grandmother because I know that she misses me so much that its not even funny. I think about how my holidays are going to be and I cringe with the thought that I won't be in Massachusetts. I can't even fathom the thought of being in Florida during Christmas and not having my family close. It sucks. But, I must say that there are so many benefits while being down here. I'm making awesome, awesome money. I have more money then I have ever had in my whole life...and that's on top of paying two student loans a month, and a credit card. I've made some great friends and there is always something to do....But still....something ain't right. I don't really know what I want out of life right now. If I had my way, I would get up tomorrow and drive across country and not worry about a thing...but that ain't gonna happen. I am a very confused little girl right now...I see and hear about all the people that I graduated with, with a good job and a steady income and I really wish I was using my degree to all it's potential. I don't know what's going to happen with me and my life. I graduated in 2005 and thought I would go into club management. Now, I don't know what I want to do and honestly, it scares me. "So, what have you been up to since you graduated from college over a year ago?" "Oh, I'm a bartender...and a server..."......"Oh.....that's cool.....I guess.....good luck...." Do whatever makes you happy, right? Right now I would be the most happiest in Massachusetts celebrating a beautiful Labor Day weekend aboard the El Dorito, watching the leaves change colors and closing down the season at the BYC, going to Martha's Vineyard for that last trip of the season and eating Giadannos' pizza and Ben & Bill's ice cream....and rooting for the Red Sox to make it to the playoffs....
I never in my life thought I would be homesick. But I am. And it sucks...This will pass....
I went out drinking tonight. I went to SEVEN different bars in a matter of 5 hours. I danced, I drank, I did shots, I asked to be part of a band, I symphatized...just another night in Key West. Key West, Key West. I am homesick as shit right now. I am trying to figure out if I am happy or not and most of the time I think that I am not happy. I don't know. I love my job. I do, seriously. I love working at Jack Flats. I sometimes like working at Red Fish but not as much anymore. It's not like it used to be and it makes me sad. But there is something that is missing. Maybe it's the fact that I miss everyone. I miss all my friends back home. I miss my family, especially my grandmother because I know that she misses me so much that its not even funny. I think about how my holidays are going to be and I cringe with the thought that I won't be in Massachusetts. I can't even fathom the thought of being in Florida during Christmas and not having my family close. It sucks. But, I must say that there are so many benefits while being down here. I'm making awesome, awesome money. I have more money then I have ever had in my whole life...and that's on top of paying two student loans a month, and a credit card. I've made some great friends and there is always something to do....But still....something ain't right. I don't really know what I want out of life right now. If I had my way, I would get up tomorrow and drive across country and not worry about a thing...but that ain't gonna happen. I am a very confused little girl right now...I see and hear about all the people that I graduated with, with a good job and a steady income and I really wish I was using my degree to all it's potential. I don't know what's going to happen with me and my life. I graduated in 2005 and thought I would go into club management. Now, I don't know what I want to do and honestly, it scares me. "So, what have you been up to since you graduated from college over a year ago?" "Oh, I'm a bartender...and a server..."......"Oh.....that's cool.....I guess.....good luck...." Do whatever makes you happy, right? Right now I would be the most happiest in Massachusetts celebrating a beautiful Labor Day weekend aboard the El Dorito, watching the leaves change colors and closing down the season at the BYC, going to Martha's Vineyard for that last trip of the season and eating Giadannos' pizza and Ben & Bill's ice cream....and rooting for the Red Sox to make it to the playoffs....
I never in my life thought I would be homesick. But I am. And it sucks...This will pass....