it's 5:26 am
last night I had a dream that my mom died. I remember it went around for a day and I knew it was going to happen, but I didn't stay by her side, I just checked once in a while to see if she was okay. Instead of taking her to the hospital she was walking around the house, having seizures and things and we were all really scared. then it happened, I came back and she was gone. not just in a spiritual sense but her body was gone too. I remember I didn't cry. my step mom and dad wanted me to go to the store to get some food for them, and I saw alot of my friends there. I had tears in my eyes, but I didn't cry. then I got back home to my mom's house and I was sitting in my room and gary came in and goes "charlotte, it's your mom" so I went to their room and he had this book that somehow you could talk to her through. and I was so happy to talk to her but I finally realized she was gone and so I started crying. and then I woke up and I kept crying and I'm still crying and I"m so scared because maybe that dream won't come true right now, but you never know when it will.