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You couldn't buy, sell, or make up this sort of shit.
It's funny the way that things work out. Really, it is. I don't enjoy this one bit, or the fact that my main source of advice thinks it's funny. It's not nice to tell nice people to "fuck off", kay boys?
God. I hate petty bullshit. I need to get away from it. Need to remove myself from it... immediately. Or, as soon as possible. I was never big on it, and now, I've been realizing how old I am. It's odd. Me and Paul always used to talk about how I always felt like everyone around me was getting older except me.... Paul always felt that he was the only one getting older. Then he looked at me and said "Wow, I never realized that you grew up, too" ... and I was washing my hair thinking "Wow, I never realized that I grew up, too" er- per se. Little things that are going on are things that always seemed so far away.
Haha It's just like wow. Cars. Jobs. Apartments. College. ...David is an ADULT. I was dating a non-teenage male ... haha craziness! I LOVE it. I'm so fucking done with this bullshit, I can't even tell you. It's not appealing to me. Never was. Never, ever fucking was.
Compliments are not a way to get to my heart. I hate them. Love is not appealing either, especially if it isn't real. Love at first sight isn't real. Every person that I've ever loved, I at first hated...... I wish I could think of these things when I need to. Let's just say it's one thing if you think something realistic ... you think something you say it, it's flattering and sweet. Love is a whoooole other fucking ballgame... it's not there.
Blah on another note, or actually the very same one. Saturday will be fun. I'm excited. ...haha
I'm tired.