of all the idiots in the world.
i believe that not only my heart is broken into about 50 different pieces, i believe my mind is too. i just have to idea what to do with my life anymore. it feels so out of hand like i can't controll a thing that's going on.
i've been pretty upset lately but i'm not sure why. i just feel like i have no one to talk to. i know that i do though. last night only made things worse.
i work a 5 hr. shift thursday. i worked a 5 1/2 hour shift friday. i worked an 8 1/2 hour shift yesterday. and i'm working an 8 1/2 hour shift today. they want me to work tomorrow too. cause this guy got fired and i asked if i could get some more hours this week cause i was only scheduled for 13. so i told them i wasn't sure about monday and i'd let them know today.
so i called my coach to see if it was okay with him because we have a game tuesday and thursday and i missed practice thursday and friday of last week. he basically said that i have to pick. that's so hard for me because that's having to choose between something i LOVE doing and something that i have to do, but that i also enjoy. i'm not sure what to do. but i have to make a decision on this today.
i'm leaving here to go cash my check in a few minutes. i can't believe my check was $230. that's not too bad.
anyway i hope everyone is going to have a wonderful day while i'm at work.
oh and by the way that last journal entry that was talking to josh saying "i can't believe we did that!", it wasn't true. i heard someone read my journal and i thought it would be a little silly to make them believe that i did something that would make them freak out.
as of right now.. i'm just living the single life. i still like josh though. it's hard to even think about getting a boyfriend when you're so busy with everything else. ya know what i mean? i haven't had one day to just sit around and do nothing since... last sunday i think.
everything is okay with my cousin david. they took him to the hospital to be evaluated... they're going to put him in northshore to determine weather they think he needs to have somewhere to stay where he can be watched. it's obvious as soon as you talk to him.
so i'm getting some highlights professionally put in my hair. either blue or hot pink! what do you guys think? let me know!!!!!!!!!
have a great day.
p.s. i love you
i've been pretty upset lately but i'm not sure why. i just feel like i have no one to talk to. i know that i do though. last night only made things worse.
i work a 5 hr. shift thursday. i worked a 5 1/2 hour shift friday. i worked an 8 1/2 hour shift yesterday. and i'm working an 8 1/2 hour shift today. they want me to work tomorrow too. cause this guy got fired and i asked if i could get some more hours this week cause i was only scheduled for 13. so i told them i wasn't sure about monday and i'd let them know today.
so i called my coach to see if it was okay with him because we have a game tuesday and thursday and i missed practice thursday and friday of last week. he basically said that i have to pick. that's so hard for me because that's having to choose between something i LOVE doing and something that i have to do, but that i also enjoy. i'm not sure what to do. but i have to make a decision on this today.
i'm leaving here to go cash my check in a few minutes. i can't believe my check was $230. that's not too bad.
anyway i hope everyone is going to have a wonderful day while i'm at work.
oh and by the way that last journal entry that was talking to josh saying "i can't believe we did that!", it wasn't true. i heard someone read my journal and i thought it would be a little silly to make them believe that i did something that would make them freak out.
as of right now.. i'm just living the single life. i still like josh though. it's hard to even think about getting a boyfriend when you're so busy with everything else. ya know what i mean? i haven't had one day to just sit around and do nothing since... last sunday i think.
everything is okay with my cousin david. they took him to the hospital to be evaluated... they're going to put him in northshore to determine weather they think he needs to have somewhere to stay where he can be watched. it's obvious as soon as you talk to him.
so i'm getting some highlights professionally put in my hair. either blue or hot pink! what do you guys think? let me know!!!!!!!!!
have a great day.
p.s. i love you