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we drink, but the drunker he gets, the less i drink.
he tells me im beautiful, takes another shot.
he tells me he thinks hes lucky to be with me, takes another shot.
kisses me.
and i let him because it feels good right now.
it feels like he needs me right now.
he wants me right now.
but i know its only for right now, and we wont be talking tomorrow.
and he wont remember what he said again.
and he wont care that hes hurting me.
and ill keep letting him.
because it felt good then
and maybe it will feel good again.
and maybe he'll want to kiss me sober.