i need to stop.

[you_are_great]

this is terrible. why do i endure this?
i know i can't handle it and i know i'm only doing more harm to myself than good.
something that makes me happy for one second is not worth the lingering moments of misery afterwards.
just when i think it's getting better, evidence to the contrary is thrown in my face.
it's never going to amount to what you want it to.

i know this. i know this. i know this.

you're not as callous as you believe yourself to be.