So different
Jareds club last night was a good time. Rachel finally got to sleep out, I was incredibly excited. Always fun to see everyone together.
I realized that it was just a year ago when everyone gathered together and hung out at the club. It's amazing how different things can be in a year and how time can change people.
Last year I was worry-free and just enjoying myself, but this year there was something eating at my heart. Of course it didn't stop me from having a great time.
I walked to robs car about 5ish and sat in there for a while. It was soothing to hear all the birds, crickets, and all those other "woodsy" sounds. Then we all left about 7 30.
Just like last summer Lee drove me home. Only this time the sun wasn't shining and there wasn't a smile plastered to my face. We weren't making plans to go to the park and go to New Hope. Instead it was gross out and cloudy. The only plans we were making was how we could work things out and be friends, knowing the whole time that it just won't work.
I have a few strange bruises and no idea where I got them from. My legs are a little weak, probably from when I was giving Jared piggy back rides all night. Man, when you have a few drinks in you You'd think you could do anything. He felt as light as a feather.
PS: I try and get over you. I'm sorry but I just don't think I can right now. Even when there is someone else comforting me and holding me and kissing me, You are all I think about. It's not fair. When you look at me just once that's enough to make me happy through the night. Why do I like you so much when all you do is make me feel invisible? I put myself out there with you, why , I'll never know because you shoot me down repeatedly. I promise I'll try harder to forget about you. Just give me more time.
I realized that it was just a year ago when everyone gathered together and hung out at the club. It's amazing how different things can be in a year and how time can change people.
Last year I was worry-free and just enjoying myself, but this year there was something eating at my heart. Of course it didn't stop me from having a great time.
I walked to robs car about 5ish and sat in there for a while. It was soothing to hear all the birds, crickets, and all those other "woodsy" sounds. Then we all left about 7 30.
Just like last summer Lee drove me home. Only this time the sun wasn't shining and there wasn't a smile plastered to my face. We weren't making plans to go to the park and go to New Hope. Instead it was gross out and cloudy. The only plans we were making was how we could work things out and be friends, knowing the whole time that it just won't work.
I have a few strange bruises and no idea where I got them from. My legs are a little weak, probably from when I was giving Jared piggy back rides all night. Man, when you have a few drinks in you You'd think you could do anything. He felt as light as a feather.
PS: I try and get over you. I'm sorry but I just don't think I can right now. Even when there is someone else comforting me and holding me and kissing me, You are all I think about. It's not fair. When you look at me just once that's enough to make me happy through the night. Why do I like you so much when all you do is make me feel invisible? I put myself out there with you, why , I'll never know because you shoot me down repeatedly. I promise I'll try harder to forget about you. Just give me more time.