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a realization: in the hierarchy of my passions, this is how each ranks:
3 psychology
2 teaching (preferably about literature, but i'm willing to settle for psychology)
1 writing
half into my first term, i'm beginning to have very serious doubts. is this the life i really want to have? to be condemned to practicing my third love, abandoning the first and putting the second on hold for an indefinite period?
i feel like water that is not held by a cup or an ocean: i slosh clumsily about, not knowing what form to take, what purpose i am supposed to have.
a friend said, "it's never too late."
but each second wasted is precious. what if i do not live to fulfill all my other dreams?
of course, in all reality, i have a choice: i could abandon this and pursue what i love the most.
but one has to be practical. one has to make sacrifices.
this does not, in any way, lessen the pain.
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in other news, i have finally finished reading Memoirs of a Geisha. beautiful, beautiful novel! i do not feel any regret that i have read this only now, because if i did in the past, i would not have appreciated it.
i have this friend whom i love very dearly (who is now in Canada) who said that she is Mameha and i am Sayuri. she said this way back, when we were still young and fresh out of high school. i haven't read the Memoirs yet, but i thought Mameha was a pretty name, so i called her as such.
when i was reading the novel, it reminded me of her, but she, smart, practical, and beautiful, but innocent still, with child-like wonder. not the worldly Mameha who has given up on passion.
then when everything clicked into place, i knew that she indeed was my Mameha, and i was her younger sister.
Rhoderiezl Cuevas Samson, reading the book made me miss you so much.
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in a Book Sale branch that only Bugie and I know, we found a copy of On the Road...
with the first few chapters torn out.
which actually doesn't matter, as i can photocopy the first few chapters from the lib anyway :D so i bought it, together with Memoirs of a Geisha and The English Patient. Total cost of the three books: PhP 280. :heart:
quite happy to say that i'm catching up on my reading. :D