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sooooooo whats up guys? i felt like i should write in here, not sure about what. i figured maybe it would give me the chance to let any built up ish out. life has been pretty meh lately. ever since jesse died, its been like this weird funk ive been in.
i didn't know him. i mean id talked to him maybe...3 times. but i saw him ALL the time. at the mall, and at school when i went. He's the reason me and shanese ever listened to the band CHIODOS, and they are like our lives. Ive been reading like all the comments on his myspace and shit and it just makes me soooo sad. I feel weird feeling that way cause again i didnt really know him...
i guess im also pretty unhappy with my job right now. multiple reasons. FYE is a music company, and music industry isn't going to stay afloat with big companies like that. between downloading and walmart and shit, there will be no need for a big specialty store like that. I want to be in a company i can feel secure that if my dream goals for a career dont work out i can at least try and make it far in a company. I see FYE going under in like 3-5 years.
the actual job is quickly losing my interest. i put cd's and dvd's away all day. and when i cashier i have to sell people bullshit or i get reemed out. not to mention my boss. i love everyone else there but him. hes just a fucking dick. thats all i can say.
it makes it hard to walk in and try and fake a smile everyday.
its so different from petsmart and a year later im STILL kicking my ass for quiting. i know they were screwing me over, but im sure i could have waited it out. because that actual JOB was what i was made for. animals. yanno i actually put my knowledge to use with customers, i could talk to people about how toc are for them and actually influence what they buy. i cant do that at FYE, i have to be a mindless zombie that just fucking shows customers where motley crue is.
*shakes head* i dunno. i learned from petsmart i cant EVER leave a job without something else lined up. so i guess i should try and fucking put some apps out. =[
i didn't know him. i mean id talked to him maybe...3 times. but i saw him ALL the time. at the mall, and at school when i went. He's the reason me and shanese ever listened to the band CHIODOS, and they are like our lives. Ive been reading like all the comments on his myspace and shit and it just makes me soooo sad. I feel weird feeling that way cause again i didnt really know him...
i guess im also pretty unhappy with my job right now. multiple reasons. FYE is a music company, and music industry isn't going to stay afloat with big companies like that. between downloading and walmart and shit, there will be no need for a big specialty store like that. I want to be in a company i can feel secure that if my dream goals for a career dont work out i can at least try and make it far in a company. I see FYE going under in like 3-5 years.
the actual job is quickly losing my interest. i put cd's and dvd's away all day. and when i cashier i have to sell people bullshit or i get reemed out. not to mention my boss. i love everyone else there but him. hes just a fucking dick. thats all i can say.
it makes it hard to walk in and try and fake a smile everyday.
its so different from petsmart and a year later im STILL kicking my ass for quiting. i know they were screwing me over, but im sure i could have waited it out. because that actual JOB was what i was made for. animals. yanno i actually put my knowledge to use with customers, i could talk to people about how toc are for them and actually influence what they buy. i cant do that at FYE, i have to be a mindless zombie that just fucking shows customers where motley crue is.
*shakes head* i dunno. i learned from petsmart i cant EVER leave a job without something else lined up. so i guess i should try and fucking put some apps out. =[