Mar 29, 2009 21:04
After a few conversations with a couple of different people this weekend, a saddening thought was realized by me.
I never been through the actual dating process.
For the three relationships that I had, they all pretty much morphed from knowing the person to being that particular girl's boyfriend.
The closest thing to dating was the couple of dinners with Sarah before I officially asked her out, but even still in those cases, I knew she was interested in only me really and I was interested only in her.
I mention this because this realization scares me somewhat. It scares me in the sense that I have absolutely no fucking clue what I'm doing in arranging and going out on a date.
I also know that I have attachment issues, in the sense that I'd be going on a date with the intentions of liking that particular person, whereas she may have three or four potential people she's interested in.
Plus, out in the business/working world, I know that the first date doesn't make you someone's significant other, it just makes you a date for that night.
I'm pretty sure that this experience is trial by fire. I'm only going to learn by doing. I just kinda wish that this stage of life came with a guidebook or some instructions.
That, and trying to find a source in which to find dates. Dating inter office seems a little iffy to me, and in a working environment, a bad breakup could be disastrous.
Come September I will hopefully have a job. Maybe at that point this might seem a little easier or make some more sense. Cause it really doesn't at the moment.
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