late night musings
its occured to me that, in part due to the age i was at the time, the 90s felt very safe. we had troden the 1900's for a while, we knew what was going on. as we approach the 2010's, i no longer feel this sense of safety. there could be aliens hiding behind any year.
tentitively, i will be mrs. hake in september of 2011. i want to go to ireland for my honeymoon if at all possible. i find myself thinking about planning the details of this oh-so-far-off event, and i have to remind myself that now, its justified. i am getting married. its okay to look at dresses, rings, etc. still kind of premature, but acceptable.
its also odd to think about the future future. for the greater part of my life, dreaming has gone as thus: 'yeah, i want children. i might do ____ or ____ for work, and i would like to live in such and such part of the country'
lying in bed ten minutes ago it went more like this (obviously, baring infidelity, extreme financial disaster, unexpected pregnancy or natural disasters) 'i will finish my degree. i will marry clint. we will move across the river to a house we will rent. we will get a basset hound. we might move further west. we will have children. i will open my bakery. i would like to have peppermint bark and decorated sugar cookies for december. i wonder if i need to ask sharron giavonni if i plan to use her roll cookie recipe. obviously i would never give it to anyone though."
i have plans. there aren't cemented- the cement is still quite wet. but the bits of wood that form the sidewalk's foundation are laid down. this is nice.
tentitively, i will be mrs. hake in september of 2011. i want to go to ireland for my honeymoon if at all possible. i find myself thinking about planning the details of this oh-so-far-off event, and i have to remind myself that now, its justified. i am getting married. its okay to look at dresses, rings, etc. still kind of premature, but acceptable.
its also odd to think about the future future. for the greater part of my life, dreaming has gone as thus: 'yeah, i want children. i might do ____ or ____ for work, and i would like to live in such and such part of the country'
lying in bed ten minutes ago it went more like this (obviously, baring infidelity, extreme financial disaster, unexpected pregnancy or natural disasters) 'i will finish my degree. i will marry clint. we will move across the river to a house we will rent. we will get a basset hound. we might move further west. we will have children. i will open my bakery. i would like to have peppermint bark and decorated sugar cookies for december. i wonder if i need to ask sharron giavonni if i plan to use her roll cookie recipe. obviously i would never give it to anyone though."
i have plans. there aren't cemented- the cement is still quite wet. but the bits of wood that form the sidewalk's foundation are laid down. this is nice.