I got my car back!!!
My car is up and running! No more asking to borrow the car. No more bumming rides. I have my own transportation. A sense of freedom that I didn't realize I had been missing so much. TJ and I had been sharing a car since December. Even during the month or so when we had both cars running, we still carpooled to save gas. And then when we broke up, and I had to rely on others...I hated that. I truly do appreciate all the help Becca gave me by allowing me to use her car. And I appreciate TJ stepping up and giving me rides these past few days. But having my own car is giving me this light feeling I didn't know was missing.
And the guy I took my car to is freaking awesome. If you ever need a good mechanic while in Omaha, let me know. I'll hook you up with Chris. He charged me a fair price. There was another car ahead of me, but he got the work done quickly. And he did more than he needed to. My hood was still smooshed up from the fender bender in December. Well, Chris straightened it up pretty good for me. If you're really looking at it, you can tell it's not perfect, and it needs some touch-up paint. But latches on its own without the need of bungee cords! I can take it through the carwash now. Poor TJ had to sit there for a minute when we pulled up because I was crying. I was that happy. I think today is the happiest I've been since before we broke up.
I'm slowly getting better. Slowly getting my life pieced together. Slowly standing on my own. I'm getting my sex drive back a little bit. I was about a week ago, and was having a nice little fantasy. Until I realized who I was fantasizing about. But maybe soon I'll be able to think of kissing another guy without feeling like I'd be cheating. I've noticed I'm checking guys out now. I don't do that when I'm happily with someone. I just notice they're male but don't really pay attention to what they look like. I still love TJ deeply, but I need to move on. I won't sit here and wait for him to pull his head out of his ass. I can't.
But I digress. My car is fixed. I'm working on being fixed. And now I need to get my butt busy and get my car loaded up with stuff to take home with me. :)
And the guy I took my car to is freaking awesome. If you ever need a good mechanic while in Omaha, let me know. I'll hook you up with Chris. He charged me a fair price. There was another car ahead of me, but he got the work done quickly. And he did more than he needed to. My hood was still smooshed up from the fender bender in December. Well, Chris straightened it up pretty good for me. If you're really looking at it, you can tell it's not perfect, and it needs some touch-up paint. But latches on its own without the need of bungee cords! I can take it through the carwash now. Poor TJ had to sit there for a minute when we pulled up because I was crying. I was that happy. I think today is the happiest I've been since before we broke up.
I'm slowly getting better. Slowly getting my life pieced together. Slowly standing on my own. I'm getting my sex drive back a little bit. I was about a week ago, and was having a nice little fantasy. Until I realized who I was fantasizing about. But maybe soon I'll be able to think of kissing another guy without feeling like I'd be cheating. I've noticed I'm checking guys out now. I don't do that when I'm happily with someone. I just notice they're male but don't really pay attention to what they look like. I still love TJ deeply, but I need to move on. I won't sit here and wait for him to pull his head out of his ass. I can't.
But I digress. My car is fixed. I'm working on being fixed. And now I need to get my butt busy and get my car loaded up with stuff to take home with me. :)