Here I Am One Shot
Title: Here I am
Length: One Shot
Author: yoosu_ftw
Rating: PG
Genre: Angst
Pairings: Yoosu
Summary: Yoochun left without a word, now he's begging his lover to take him back. Based on the song: Here I Am by Johnny Reid
Kim Junsu had gone through a hard day at work. Business had been slow so he was left to sit and think about his life. What happened in the past, what’s happening now, and his future. It had been a gruelling day for his brain, and all he wanted was to get back home and fall asleep, erase all the thoughts from his mind.
A lone figure sitting by his door stopped him dead in his tracks.
“Yoo… chun?” he breathed, barely and sound left the man, yet the other male looked up and stared into his eyes. Both just continued to look, one in disbelief, the other… unreadable.
“Su-ah…” the other man stood up to his full height, just slightly taller than Junsu, but a soft grin and pleading eyes made him seem much, much smaller.
Junsu didn’t know what to do. A bunch of thoughts he’d swear he got rid of flew through his head and muddled together.
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“You’re not leaving me… are you, Chunnie?”
“Su-ah, I have to go, the plane is leaving soon.”
“How can you do this to me?!”
“I have to go Junsu.”
“… Yoochun!”
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Junsu would never forget the day where he stood outside the airport, watching his lover leave him. To some place that he hadn’t disclosed to Junsu, for a time that was also unknown to Junsu.
The rain had poured over Junsu for the whole twelve hours he stood there, hair plastered to his face, his clothes, and his heart, twenty pounds heavier. The only consolence was the rain mixed with his tears. At least God sympathised with him that day.
After a long silence, Junsu spoke up.
“What do you think you’re doing here?”
“I’m so sorry I left you,” Junsu couldn’t look at him, afraid of seeing sincerity in the other’s hazel eyes. “I’m so sorry I left you, crying there in the rain, saying my name…”
“You have no right to come back here! You have no idea what you put me through!” for the first time since Yoochun had left, Junsu allowed himself to be angry, to show some emotion other than heartbreak and sadness.
“I’m asking for forgiveness, Junsu. And I’m not ashamed to ask please,” Yoochun bowed his head slightly, missing Junsu’s eyes cloud over and start to tear. “For so many days I missed your pretty face. You’re what I need, I’m a changed man.”
Refusing to let any tears leak, Junsu screwed his eyes closed and turned around, no longer able to look at the man who had left him so suddenly… no excuses… no phone calls… nothing.
“You think a couple of words will make me forgive you? Yoochun… you just don’t understand…you haven’t changed at all…” he reached for his apartment door, but was stopped by a slim hand grabbing his wrist. Taking a long intake of oxygen, Junsu looked up to the owner of the hand. Yoochun’s own eyes were red and puffy now, but he was letting his tears fall, a man without pride or shame.
“Can you find me somewhere within you? How I longed to kiss you?” they both looked into each other’s gaze, soul searching, looking, prodding, for any opening, explanation… anything.
Nothing was said for a while until a weak, “why’d you come back?”
Yoochun smiled slightly once again, still holding onto Junsu’s wrist with one hand, and bringing up his other hand to caress the dolphin’s face.
“The winds in Santa Fe, they blew your name out loud, so I hurried back…”
Junsu pulled back, refusing to go back to his man, refusing to let him back into his life, back into his arms. “Words aren’t going to change all the hurt, Yoochun. You left. You didn’t tell me anything, you didn’t even tell me you were leaving until I found you at the airport. What I hadn’t? You would have just disappeared from my life... Yoochun-“
Before he could say anything, Yoochun got on his knees and offered a hand to Junsu. “Please believe me Su, my heart cries just for the chance. Me without you is more than I can stand…”
Junsu thought hard, even though his tears clouded his mind. It was a balance of forgiving, or to move on. The hurt this man gave him was unimaginable… but while they were together… the love was undescribeable.
“Junsu… take my hand.”
A few drops ran down gentle cheeks.
“Here I am.”
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A/N I'm not really happy with it. It's full of fail.
I might redo it but under Yoochun's POV... doenst feel right under 3rd pov..
Uhm yeah, so you can take it how it is, interpate it as you want. whether Junsu and Yoochun says the last line.. up to you.
Whether Junsu takes Yoochun back or not... up to you.
So yeah, I was listening to Johnny Reid's old CD, and I got so inspired to write a bunch of One shots. I tried to intergrate as much of the lyrics as possible...
Lyrics:
06. Here I am
I'm so sorry I left you Virginia
I'm so sorry I left you my love
Crying there in the rain
Saying my name I was in a rush
Yeah I'm asking for forgiveness Virginia
And I'm not ashamed to ask please
Oh for so many days
I missed your pretty face
You're what I need I'm a changed man
Here I am
Here I am
Can you find me within you
Somewhere within your Virginia
Here I am
Do you know how I missed you
How I longed to kiss you Virginia
Me without you is more than I can stand
Here I am
It was a long, long journey to get here
Ain't it funny how the truth it comes out
On a street in Santa Fe the wind blew your name out loud
So I hurried back
Here I am
Here I am
Can you find me within you
Somewhere within your Virginia
Here I am
Do you know how I missed you
How I longed to kiss you Virginia
Me without you is more than I can stand
Here I am
Here I am...
Take my hand
I'm so sorry I left you Virginia
I'm so sorry I left you my love
Here I am
Can you find me within you
Somewhere within your Virginia
Here I am
Down on my knees
Oh please believe me virginia
My heart it cries just for the chance
Me without you is more than I can stand
Here I am...