[PRIVATE] Melted

Dec 11, 2004 03:03

Cherry Filter - Snow Man [ Download ]

When you lost your dream
Along the way there's a snowman in the cold

When you lost your dream
I'm in the lonely distance, my heart is calling for the stars
It will be cold and it will be desolate and it will show
what snowman it is from

The troubling song which it lost and threw away the dreams
The memory of a new day is nice for the snowman
The troubling song which it lost and threw away the dreams
The memory of a new day is nice for the snowman

People of this world are spilling tears
The two white hands collect it you can ask for a dream

When you lost your dream
The sun rises and the people who fell asleep are awakened
The snowman -- it's where the stars move away from morning, the heart melts it and it disappears

When you lost your dream
I'm in the lonely distance, my heart calls for ....
True feelings of beautiful love it lost and was thrown away though it will soak and heal
There is one snowman

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I'm so ashamed.

It's been so long, but every time he touches me, I shut down like a rusty watch whose batteries had drained to nothing.

Everytime I trick myself into believing that I have a spine, it gives out completely and I'm lost.

It scares me, being touched like that, and it shouldn't. This is the way all men touch the woman that they love. It is something so natural, and with him it's always so gentle, but even then... I just can't do it. And it's not even that I don't want to...

It's that I can't.

For the first month or so, everyone walked around me like they were tiptoeing on eggshells... and I guess the memory fades with time. That loss.

But to me, it's still so fresh. Sometimes I wake up in the morning and I forget that it even happened, and then I take off my clothes before I shower and realize what's missing. And with every realization, I think a part of me dies again.

I'm not as strong as I had always believed myself to be.

Breathe, Youjeen. Tomorrow's another day, isn't it?

They've all moved on. So can you.

... Right?

[ translation - nrgyzed ]
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