whats up?!
I called him the other day...Chris that is. We are going to get together Saturday at Olive Garden. It's my favorite restaurant so I am OK with that. I am kind of excited and nervous at the same time...but I can't wait to see him.
You know that feeling you get when one of your close friends starts to slip away from you? You don't want it to happen...but there's nothing you can do about it? That's what I am feeling right now. My best friend...My one true love...My soul mate...The one person that can make me happy in any situation. Maybe I'm just worrying about nothing...but it seems as if we are growing apart. I desperately don't want that to happen. I would die without him in my life. But what's a girl to do? And when he talks about other girls it tears at my heart. I feel...hurt. We are supposed to be together. We are supposed to be the perfect couple. We are supposed to be like we are in my dreams. But that doesn't seem likely to happen. But when we are together...it's like we were never apart. We are in love, you can tell...but it scares us both...to be so young and so in love...what if we get hurt? What if we put our whole hearts into this and it ends up getting broken into tiny little pieces that will take forever and an eternity to put back together? I think that's what is happening..we are just scared...scared of getting hurt again. But if we take a chance with each other maybe it will be our chance of a lifetime and it will be the best thing that happened to us. Am I making any sense right now or am I just babbling?
5 1/2 weeks of school left. I am excited and scared at the same time...I am full of emotions right now.
My grandpa is still in the hospital...I'm scared. I know he wants to go...die...he's just holding on for Jerry. My grandpa was my best friend growing up...I love him lots...and I don't want to know what it's going to be like without him...not yet at least..I am not ready for him to leave us.
And I am scared for Jerry too. I may not say it all the time...actually I never say it. In some ways I still look to Jerry as my big brother who can conquer anything...he kills the scary monsters in the closet and under the bed and he gets rid of the bad guys...but hes just human...and it scares me...I just want him to come home.
I'm going to go now...
You know that feeling you get when one of your close friends starts to slip away from you? You don't want it to happen...but there's nothing you can do about it? That's what I am feeling right now. My best friend...My one true love...My soul mate...The one person that can make me happy in any situation. Maybe I'm just worrying about nothing...but it seems as if we are growing apart. I desperately don't want that to happen. I would die without him in my life. But what's a girl to do? And when he talks about other girls it tears at my heart. I feel...hurt. We are supposed to be together. We are supposed to be the perfect couple. We are supposed to be like we are in my dreams. But that doesn't seem likely to happen. But when we are together...it's like we were never apart. We are in love, you can tell...but it scares us both...to be so young and so in love...what if we get hurt? What if we put our whole hearts into this and it ends up getting broken into tiny little pieces that will take forever and an eternity to put back together? I think that's what is happening..we are just scared...scared of getting hurt again. But if we take a chance with each other maybe it will be our chance of a lifetime and it will be the best thing that happened to us. Am I making any sense right now or am I just babbling?
5 1/2 weeks of school left. I am excited and scared at the same time...I am full of emotions right now.
My grandpa is still in the hospital...I'm scared. I know he wants to go...die...he's just holding on for Jerry. My grandpa was my best friend growing up...I love him lots...and I don't want to know what it's going to be like without him...not yet at least..I am not ready for him to leave us.
And I am scared for Jerry too. I may not say it all the time...actually I never say it. In some ways I still look to Jerry as my big brother who can conquer anything...he kills the scary monsters in the closet and under the bed and he gets rid of the bad guys...but hes just human...and it scares me...I just want him to come home.
I'm going to go now...