still in the place where cheese and wine run rampid

[yonij4]

the wine here is unbelievable. though i am not feeling so myself. i sense a lack of communication with the world. while this has never bothered me, nor been present, before, i am not surprised by it. this is the first time i actually have something to miss. the first time i have somewhere id rather be, or rather someone id rather be with. because not only do i have friends for the first time, a girlfriend for the first time, and a fun town for the first time, i love all of it. especially sianna. it would seem that, though i don't know any better, i've found someone who is perfect for me. it makes the need to explore other things (and by things i mean other women) virtually nonexistant. now if i were in any other place in my life i would find this really very frightening. and seeing myself type it is in fact making me very jumpy and nervous, but it feels right. i'm not quite sure what this feeling is or means and will explore it further when i return to the states.
tootles
no worries