Chapter II: Watch me as a burn
all it is now is a short fuse. stand above me and flick the lighter on and off, tease me with the thought of everything i want. on. everything slows down. off. back to looking at me through those precious eyes. on. hold out our souls and watch them change to embers. dropping one by one, closer to the fuse that eventually forgets us all. another memory long lost. inch by inch, and ember falls closer to our threaded rope. everthing slows down again. starring in my eyes. too busy to realize what is happening, a spark catches the fuse. second by second, everything seems like forever. so much pain. so much nostalgia. a knave and a queen. another second passes. another inch closer. another reason to let go of my hopes, i just stare at it, tranfixed as i am, i know i can stop this. another second passes. another thought of the past second. its all over soon. its almost ready to burst. we could have had so much, we still can. what the hell are we thinking. lock the brakes and try to avoid this but too late yet so early that it may never have began. another second. pinch the fuse. leave me to do the job. its all in arms reach. the fuse in my hand, i still cant pull it out. i want you to do it, show that you dont want this to happen. another second. another inch closer. i watch sweating as you reach down to disconnect it. done, but its still burning. is it my fault after all? pick it up and hold it close to my heart and watch it explode. another second and finally all the hate, all the love, all the misjudgment...gone. now we are nothing but the embers floating around looking for another soul to burn. is this what it was meant to be? will anyone burn with compassion as you and me...so red. fades to blue, now gone. and knave and a queen. spades forever.