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So I'm hoping this is just a phase I'm going through, but for the life of me I can't stand humanity right now.
Not my friends, not my dormmates, not the people I talk to online, not the strangers I run into. It's kind of scaring me, this overwhelming hatred that's coming out of nowhere.
There's still a sane-minded tone in the back of my head telling me it's not fair and it's not nice, what I'm doing to the people I know, but at the same time it feels like coming on with a case of antisocial disassociative personality disorder, or whatever it's called.
And I scold myself that if this shit keeps up for long, I'm going to end up driving people away and regretting it. But at the same time...Man. The "fuck people" bile is rising in my throat as I'm typing this.
Yeah. I think I'm going to shut off the internet for a while, lose my cell phone, cut class for a week and go hiking. I'll see you all in a few days.
Not my friends, not my dormmates, not the people I talk to online, not the strangers I run into. It's kind of scaring me, this overwhelming hatred that's coming out of nowhere.
There's still a sane-minded tone in the back of my head telling me it's not fair and it's not nice, what I'm doing to the people I know, but at the same time it feels like coming on with a case of antisocial disassociative personality disorder, or whatever it's called.
And I scold myself that if this shit keeps up for long, I'm going to end up driving people away and regretting it. But at the same time...Man. The "fuck people" bile is rising in my throat as I'm typing this.
Yeah. I think I'm going to shut off the internet for a while, lose my cell phone, cut class for a week and go hiking. I'll see you all in a few days.