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well, hello there!! yup, haven't updated in a while. i'm doing okay, except i feel really weird like something's gonna happen. zach and i are doing well, i think, haven't talked to him in a while and the last time i saw him he was half asleep.
so, my parents are leaving me for a whole entire week!! for those who know my parents, they know how much of a big deal this is. apparently i'm having this big ass party so i have to clean and stuff. i got burned yesterday when i biked to jenny's house. yup, i'm a crazy one. i almost made it too, until charlotte saw me and asked if i wanted a ride. i won't deny that i was grateful. i learned that i'm really not in any good shape. and i couldn't believe it, jeremy actually talked to me like i was a human being. it's good to know that i'm not just a thing to make fun of any more.
yup, i feel weird. i'm not sure why and i've been feeling this way for the past week. it's kindof sad to watch all of my friends parting their ways in bad ways. like annalisa and ashlee. it's just weird. of course ashlee has what is coming to her because it seems like she has taken annalisa for granted for a long time and i'm sure that some others would agree. i was jealous of annalisa for so long because ashlee used to be my violet but i was just kidding myself. i may still be claire and she may still be violet but we are definetly not each other's. and there's crystal who doesn't want to come back from wisconsin because of all the drama. don't blame her one bit. and hearing stuff about travis and jordon and ben and nathan and sara and jenny and jerry. everything is just so weird. i've seen so many groups be split up in my time but nothing so severe. i hate changes. i feel entirely like a wallflower in a sense that i really haven't been around much for anyone. alot of it had to do with moving but also because i just didn't want to get involved. i could see it coming and now the shit has really hit the fan. we'll never be the same and yet we will, we have all just grown apart. and i really don't want to grow up because it scares me but now i figure that i have to because everyone else has seemed to and i might as well follow suit.
sorry, i'm just a little depressed about things and really just wish that everyone would just get along.
so, my parents are leaving me for a whole entire week!! for those who know my parents, they know how much of a big deal this is. apparently i'm having this big ass party so i have to clean and stuff. i got burned yesterday when i biked to jenny's house. yup, i'm a crazy one. i almost made it too, until charlotte saw me and asked if i wanted a ride. i won't deny that i was grateful. i learned that i'm really not in any good shape. and i couldn't believe it, jeremy actually talked to me like i was a human being. it's good to know that i'm not just a thing to make fun of any more.
yup, i feel weird. i'm not sure why and i've been feeling this way for the past week. it's kindof sad to watch all of my friends parting their ways in bad ways. like annalisa and ashlee. it's just weird. of course ashlee has what is coming to her because it seems like she has taken annalisa for granted for a long time and i'm sure that some others would agree. i was jealous of annalisa for so long because ashlee used to be my violet but i was just kidding myself. i may still be claire and she may still be violet but we are definetly not each other's. and there's crystal who doesn't want to come back from wisconsin because of all the drama. don't blame her one bit. and hearing stuff about travis and jordon and ben and nathan and sara and jenny and jerry. everything is just so weird. i've seen so many groups be split up in my time but nothing so severe. i hate changes. i feel entirely like a wallflower in a sense that i really haven't been around much for anyone. alot of it had to do with moving but also because i just didn't want to get involved. i could see it coming and now the shit has really hit the fan. we'll never be the same and yet we will, we have all just grown apart. and i really don't want to grow up because it scares me but now i figure that i have to because everyone else has seemed to and i might as well follow suit.
sorry, i'm just a little depressed about things and really just wish that everyone would just get along.