I Owe You A Love Song
Well hello there, all.
It's been over a year since I last posted but I feel that Lj has a mobile site so I can post to it via my CrackBerry.
Also, anyone who reads this knows what's going on so I don't feel like recapping the last year.
I miss Jordan. Like a shit ton. I constant bitch about it and I know I should stop but I don't have any other interesting shit to talk about.
I'm hoping I get the job at Hastings, I'm calling them in the morning / afternoon before Skyler comes to pick me up for Tri-Cities adventures.
I think if I get the job I'm gonna use it as a starter to talking to Jordan again. Just call him up and be like "I've got great news! You should come over and I'll tell you over a game a Halo!"
I think it'll work... Or fall completely flat, ya know, whatever works.
I was reading through our old MSN convos and it made me so nostalgic for the carefree beginning of our relationship. It was so adorable.
There was one time where we were using a program so he could talk to me via mic but I had to type on MSN, it was like 5 am and I was passing out, but his voice was in my head and he was like "Go to sleep, I'll be there in the morning." it was just so wonderful. He kissed me awake and I freaked the fuck out but it was so sweet and lovely then he climbed into bed with me and we slept.
;___;
I actually forgot about all those things for awhile. It's so sad. I was so stuck on the silences for weeks then the one night together and more silence.
I don't know where we went wrong... Ok that's a lie, I know where, when and why.
Because my stupid anger, my landlady's ridiculous nosiness, and the lack of school.
I hope everything works out and we can go back to being ridiculous and having our hours of post sex talk or my random laugh attacks in the middle of kissing which end with him, head resting on hand, saying "Are you done being crazy?" which brings on a whole new laughing spree, him rolling his eyes and shaking his head at me, a smile on his face.
I dunno what brought on all the flashbacks, but I was finally able to put our pictures back up on my bedside table and I don't feel like every time I look at them.
But maybe now I will. I feel I haven't had a really good cry over this entire thing and I just need to let it out, but I want him there to comfort me and make me feel like he still does -love- me.
He still has our prom pictures up on his door, according to Eddie, which is a good sign. I think he's just keeping it 'cause he's so fucking PIMP looking in his tux, hand in pocket. I mean... Just yum yum!
Haha. Anyway, I think this is a good first new post and I really should sleep a few hours before I'm off to where ever Skyloi is taking me. ;]
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It's been over a year since I last posted but I feel that Lj has a mobile site so I can post to it via my CrackBerry.
Also, anyone who reads this knows what's going on so I don't feel like recapping the last year.
I miss Jordan. Like a shit ton. I constant bitch about it and I know I should stop but I don't have any other interesting shit to talk about.
I'm hoping I get the job at Hastings, I'm calling them in the morning / afternoon before Skyler comes to pick me up for Tri-Cities adventures.
I think if I get the job I'm gonna use it as a starter to talking to Jordan again. Just call him up and be like "I've got great news! You should come over and I'll tell you over a game a Halo!"
I think it'll work... Or fall completely flat, ya know, whatever works.
I was reading through our old MSN convos and it made me so nostalgic for the carefree beginning of our relationship. It was so adorable.
There was one time where we were using a program so he could talk to me via mic but I had to type on MSN, it was like 5 am and I was passing out, but his voice was in my head and he was like "Go to sleep, I'll be there in the morning." it was just so wonderful. He kissed me awake and I freaked the fuck out but it was so sweet and lovely then he climbed into bed with me and we slept.
;___;
I actually forgot about all those things for awhile. It's so sad. I was so stuck on the silences for weeks then the one night together and more silence.
I don't know where we went wrong... Ok that's a lie, I know where, when and why.
Because my stupid anger, my landlady's ridiculous nosiness, and the lack of school.
I hope everything works out and we can go back to being ridiculous and having our hours of post sex talk or my random laugh attacks in the middle of kissing which end with him, head resting on hand, saying "Are you done being crazy?" which brings on a whole new laughing spree, him rolling his eyes and shaking his head at me, a smile on his face.
I dunno what brought on all the flashbacks, but I was finally able to put our pictures back up on my bedside table and I don't feel like every time I look at them.
But maybe now I will. I feel I haven't had a really good cry over this entire thing and I just need to let it out, but I want him there to comfort me and make me feel like he still does -love- me.
He still has our prom pictures up on his door, according to Eddie, which is a good sign. I think he's just keeping it 'cause he's so fucking PIMP looking in his tux, hand in pocket. I mean... Just yum yum!
Haha. Anyway, I think this is a good first new post and I really should sleep a few hours before I'm off to where ever Skyloi is taking me. ;]
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