Realization Time

[yojichan]

I realize that there are a lot of things that I must change within myself.

I realize that I can't speak in past tense anymore nor will I speak in singular tense.

I may not look conventional or mainstream but i've always found a way to shine in my own way and that's a fact. I've proven it many times before and have made a reputation for myself and even inspired others to do so.

what reason is there for me to turn back and hide in a stupid cave again?

only to lose what i am having now?

i don't want to be afraid anymore. I've lived for so long in fear that it became my reality.

Insha Allah, I will be prepared for this. Things happen for a reason even if it is presented in a way I have never expected. But the fact that it is happening, I will relish it with all of my heart.

Should things do not turn out the other way around, I will accept it just to know that I am able to feel THIS much and this strongly.

I will view compliments as an ocean now, overwhelming as it may be.

the trick is to keep myself from drowning.

i will stay afloat.

i will swim.

I will enjoy this.

I will love this.

I will be strong and brave enough to feel THIS good so help me God.