it happens again
it happens, then it happens again, john hits a low point for reason whatso ever
all the stuff that i been smiling over seems to appear in one go and jumps up waves a hand and says I'm here
note to self stop white washing life
for those interested read it and if you aint dont bother
im fucking tired. constantly and no volume of coffee helps
believe me ive tried, and im sleeping loads.
too much in fact, missing important uni time, grrrrrr
dissertation just aint happening, no matter how much i try it just seems to not happen
keep kicking myself in the arse but to no avail
my freind support network which i rely on so much seems preocupied, which is fair enough.
just a little lonely need people around me, and there all busy which is cool and i dont hold it against them but that dont stop me feeling out on my own.
parents are being shit. all mum gives a fuck about is me doing this work and sorting myself out for next year when i graduate n having a place to live and a job thaty pays well and i know its just because she cares but i wish she would let me get on with it and not keep on at me because i know what ive got to do and she wont let me have a conversation with her without belittleing my efforts.
christ im so tired
currently sam n ellie wont speak to me, ellie needs space from me and sam just plain hates me so thumbs up there
my house mates drive me up the fucking wall
im brassic and owe ed loads of cash so hopefully ill get that for him soon.
i have this ridiculous fucking cold thing that wont go away.
in fairness i cant wait to graduate and fuck off somewhere, wherever i go.
thinking quite a lot about just going to plymouth, getting a job and hanging out with mark and starting a whole new life away from all this shit here
im tired of everyone having something wrong with me
i never see loads of my mates and i dont know why
they go out loads but never give me a shout, i dont know why this is.
i cant do stuff for reasons that aint getting written down here, there is a whole load of shit i cant write here and i hate that aswell due to certain people who would read it
that irratates me a lot when someone says i read your LJ and gives you a dirty knowing look.
i cant think of another outlet for loads of stuff that i need to put somewhere
on a plus note though im writing loadsa lyrics now, just need to pick my guitar up from angies n turn it into songs
but thats a stupid idea coz i cant sing, ellie who was gonna jam with me wont speak to me so singing with me is probably out the question
got loadsa songs n no outlet for them
fucking brill.
so that kinda seems like a waste of time
tons of written songs n no bugger to sing them for me
put adds up everywhere but no one replies
getta keep looking i guess
arrrggghhhh
so self important at the moment and i hate it. and the funny thing is the next time i post ill be on top of the world and all this will have passed,
how wierd is that, i have moods like a yo yo at the moment, one minute happy as fucking larry and the next im this miserable self important cunt.
alas
got a new piercing and a wildhearts album today
n e ways
j out
ill be happier next time i promise
all the stuff that i been smiling over seems to appear in one go and jumps up waves a hand and says I'm here
note to self stop white washing life
for those interested read it and if you aint dont bother
im fucking tired. constantly and no volume of coffee helps
believe me ive tried, and im sleeping loads.
too much in fact, missing important uni time, grrrrrr
dissertation just aint happening, no matter how much i try it just seems to not happen
keep kicking myself in the arse but to no avail
my freind support network which i rely on so much seems preocupied, which is fair enough.
just a little lonely need people around me, and there all busy which is cool and i dont hold it against them but that dont stop me feeling out on my own.
parents are being shit. all mum gives a fuck about is me doing this work and sorting myself out for next year when i graduate n having a place to live and a job thaty pays well and i know its just because she cares but i wish she would let me get on with it and not keep on at me because i know what ive got to do and she wont let me have a conversation with her without belittleing my efforts.
christ im so tired
currently sam n ellie wont speak to me, ellie needs space from me and sam just plain hates me so thumbs up there
my house mates drive me up the fucking wall
im brassic and owe ed loads of cash so hopefully ill get that for him soon.
i have this ridiculous fucking cold thing that wont go away.
in fairness i cant wait to graduate and fuck off somewhere, wherever i go.
thinking quite a lot about just going to plymouth, getting a job and hanging out with mark and starting a whole new life away from all this shit here
im tired of everyone having something wrong with me
i never see loads of my mates and i dont know why
they go out loads but never give me a shout, i dont know why this is.
i cant do stuff for reasons that aint getting written down here, there is a whole load of shit i cant write here and i hate that aswell due to certain people who would read it
that irratates me a lot when someone says i read your LJ and gives you a dirty knowing look.
i cant think of another outlet for loads of stuff that i need to put somewhere
on a plus note though im writing loadsa lyrics now, just need to pick my guitar up from angies n turn it into songs
but thats a stupid idea coz i cant sing, ellie who was gonna jam with me wont speak to me so singing with me is probably out the question
got loadsa songs n no outlet for them
fucking brill.
so that kinda seems like a waste of time
tons of written songs n no bugger to sing them for me
put adds up everywhere but no one replies
getta keep looking i guess
arrrggghhhh
so self important at the moment and i hate it. and the funny thing is the next time i post ill be on top of the world and all this will have passed,
how wierd is that, i have moods like a yo yo at the moment, one minute happy as fucking larry and the next im this miserable self important cunt.
alas
got a new piercing and a wildhearts album today
n e ways
j out
ill be happier next time i promise