waiting for the news
im putting off actually studying studying for my human nutrition midterm...probably not good, but i was pretty productive today so i'm taking a break from reality...or something like that.
So I went and got tested for HIV/AIDS today...not that I had reason to believe I contracted it, but just for sake of mind and all that stuff. I can tell you everything that happened today in absolute detail and clarity. My mind happens to push everything else out when I do things like this. Not absolutely sure why, but I was honestly terrified that this would be my payback for all the bad things i've done in my lifetime...I won't lie, not all of my sex or sexual behaviors have been 110% preventing me from getting it...just not as high of a risk as OTHER sex acts that I wouldnt do without protection (if you're gonna tap it, gotta wrap it guys). Anyways, i'm kind of digressing...
After my only class of the day, I walked out into the abnormally bright sunlight and mild temperature that is unheard of in Ohio at this time (or any season really). "Wonderful Place" was blaring from my headphones...such a mellow song by N.E.R.D. (pre-supercocky Pharrell days) and everything seemed kind of surreal...the entire Mirror Lake surrounding area felt...i dont know, warm somehow. But the feeling ended as I kept going.
I was walking towards my fate, to find out whether I might so happen to receive a death sentence or not. I KNOW they say that AIDS doesnt = death, but in my mind...it may as well. So I got to my office hours at the Underground, convinced my friend Kristen to get tested too...did the deed, talked to the counselor about various sex things (was fun) and discovered i am HIV NEGATIVE.
I don't care if you think or are "pretty sure" you're safe...it never hurts to have a professional tell you that everything is ok. I felt a huge burden off my shoulders. It was great. I highly recommend even if you're just "kind of" sexually active...GET TESTED. Guy, girl, gay, straight, whatever...I'm going to stop before i get preachy.
A friend of mine contracted HIV last year, AFTER he had been somewhat monogamous with his girlfriend for a long time. She hooked up with a guy or something when they had an argument...and next thing they know, he contacts her and says he might have given it to her. A week later, said friend calls me and breaks down...I never want to hear of this happening to anymore of my friends. Get tested.
Enough of a PSA, I've needed some good news like this...although small, any little bit counts, right?
Hahahahahaha I'm getting relayed a catfight from co-employees that work the front desk job with me. I'm glad I never start the drama or shit at ANY of my workplaces...then again, I'm more of the silent spectator that keeps to himself, does the damn job, and thats it. My problems stay out of the workplace, amen.
Ok human nutrition isnt learning itself...I've forgotten how it feels to just take a breath and write. The things I can say here and not aloud...
Things work themselves out in the end, right?
That's one thing we can all hope for...if you think this applies to you, it does.
takin it day by day,
-yohe
PS: kind of ashamed to admit...i like the new Yellowcard CD (at least the single!!!)
So I went and got tested for HIV/AIDS today...not that I had reason to believe I contracted it, but just for sake of mind and all that stuff. I can tell you everything that happened today in absolute detail and clarity. My mind happens to push everything else out when I do things like this. Not absolutely sure why, but I was honestly terrified that this would be my payback for all the bad things i've done in my lifetime...I won't lie, not all of my sex or sexual behaviors have been 110% preventing me from getting it...just not as high of a risk as OTHER sex acts that I wouldnt do without protection (if you're gonna tap it, gotta wrap it guys). Anyways, i'm kind of digressing...
After my only class of the day, I walked out into the abnormally bright sunlight and mild temperature that is unheard of in Ohio at this time (or any season really). "Wonderful Place" was blaring from my headphones...such a mellow song by N.E.R.D. (pre-supercocky Pharrell days) and everything seemed kind of surreal...the entire Mirror Lake surrounding area felt...i dont know, warm somehow. But the feeling ended as I kept going.
I was walking towards my fate, to find out whether I might so happen to receive a death sentence or not. I KNOW they say that AIDS doesnt = death, but in my mind...it may as well. So I got to my office hours at the Underground, convinced my friend Kristen to get tested too...did the deed, talked to the counselor about various sex things (was fun) and discovered i am HIV NEGATIVE.
I don't care if you think or are "pretty sure" you're safe...it never hurts to have a professional tell you that everything is ok. I felt a huge burden off my shoulders. It was great. I highly recommend even if you're just "kind of" sexually active...GET TESTED. Guy, girl, gay, straight, whatever...I'm going to stop before i get preachy.
A friend of mine contracted HIV last year, AFTER he had been somewhat monogamous with his girlfriend for a long time. She hooked up with a guy or something when they had an argument...and next thing they know, he contacts her and says he might have given it to her. A week later, said friend calls me and breaks down...I never want to hear of this happening to anymore of my friends. Get tested.
Enough of a PSA, I've needed some good news like this...although small, any little bit counts, right?
Hahahahahaha I'm getting relayed a catfight from co-employees that work the front desk job with me. I'm glad I never start the drama or shit at ANY of my workplaces...then again, I'm more of the silent spectator that keeps to himself, does the damn job, and thats it. My problems stay out of the workplace, amen.
Ok human nutrition isnt learning itself...I've forgotten how it feels to just take a breath and write. The things I can say here and not aloud...
Things work themselves out in the end, right?
That's one thing we can all hope for...if you think this applies to you, it does.
takin it day by day,
-yohe
PS: kind of ashamed to admit...i like the new Yellowcard CD (at least the single!!!)