Piano, boyfriend and bra.

[yohanna_chan]

Okay, I’m a little down right now… nothing serious, I’m just disappointed.

A little more than a year ago I played the piano. But when I entered a music class in school it all changed. It’s then a class that focuses mainly on music.
It was also a period in my life where I felt the most depressed. Now thanks to medicine (and a little B-T) my life

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[warmuse]

Ah, the joys of playing piano in front really clever people *sarcasm*! Urgh. I didn't go into the whole depression thing, but I sympathise for you (I feel worthless all the time these days, but not due to music) I no longer play the piano, and that makes me feel so bad because I was playing piano continuously for 14 years until I went to university (try having Asian parents, they make your life hell, but there's a pretty good chance you'll end up playing at least one instrument *headdesk*). At that time I put so much effort into playing, back when I was 17 or 18? Until I was around 16 I hated playing piano, but then I met this amazing piano teacher...bah, not the point of this story. I wish I recorded what I did, I only did one recording of my performance because I had to send it as my music coursework, but then I don't have it with me here :S. At least I'm singing quite a lot these days.

So, even randomly playing is good. Glad you're not feeling bad about yourself any more, too :D Maybe you can try to reconstruct the music from listening to your work? But then it's your call.

These days I wish I can play piano again, because I want to play B-T! But my fingers will be all locked up and clumsy now :S So disappointing.

ps. Bras, urgh, the evil thing! but my boobs are saggy without them

[yohanna_chan]

I know that worthless feeling, it comes back some days, but as long as I'm happy there's not much of a problem.

I didn't play long, I more learned myself, I can read notes, but not really complicated stuff. I can read Japanese faster than notes XD
Hmm... well I only have one Swedish father and one Finnish mother... so no asian there. Though the Finnish side is really pushy when it comes to confirmation... I didn't do it and my grandfather was so upset!
I did not have a good teacher... never. Only one that made me want to apologize every time I played wrong... And it just made me feel more worthless. It's hard to even get a teacher here so you'll just have to be happy with what you get. :/

Ah, I sing a lot too! Maaaany B-T songs... only B-T actually.

LOL... To prevent nipple-flash and to make the little breasts I have look bigger I wear one... But not lies or so, they just look bigger in one way but you don't get fooled either XD