A Weight has been Lifted.

[yogurt_vodka]

Why can't I let it go? I keep going back over what all was posted on her lj, because she just had to do it over the internet, and I feel as if there was so much more that I could've said. Something that she could have listened to and realized that I was the right one and that she had absolutely no right to even label me as a shitty friend. Don't

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[jack0of0spades]

Honey, believe me, I know how you feel. I have no desire to even count the number of endless hurt, angry journal entries, both public and private, that have come out of me in the past two years. So please understand that what I say is meant in all kindness. Take offense if you must, I know this is a sore subject, but hear me.

We're all human, we all have flaws, and we all change. I'm sorry it couldn't be a cleaner break between you and Karmi, but if the connection is severed then it's time you should focus your energies on healing rather than revenge for the hurt that's been inflicted on you. I'm not saying that you're not in part trying to do that, but it's today now, and whether or not you spent the time as you think you should have, that argument is over. I don't think I need to point out too strongly that this venting is on the same public forum that you objected to being used before. I'm not saying that there's sin in using it, only that you should try to be consistant in your standards.

But really, let's face it, when you get right down to it we're all just kids. We all have our different degrees and areas in which we're immature, and if we can't forgive each other for that, nothing will ever change. I'm sorry if I sound patronizing in this comment, I am only trying to tell you the things I tell myself when I find myself in a similar position. I know it helps me to hear it from someone else, I thought maybe it could sooth you a bit as well.

You know my number, babe, and you know I'm always a sypathetic ear. This is gonna be a hectic weekend for me, but if all else fails I'll see you Sunday, right? We'll have to put something together, go to the beach or see a movie or something, now that we're both gonna be free from school. Love ya.
-MK

[yogurt_vodka]

Thanks. And I really don't take any offense. I would rather have some kind of constructive criticism, than "you're dumb. shut up." The only thing that I have to say in my defense is that I felt like doors still weren't shut, like I wanted them to be. The only way I could even relatively get my voice heard was going through this. I wouldn't have chosen it to begin with, but it was the only way I could see.

I'm slowly getting over it, and I'm really hoping that I will because I'm tired of being angry and revengeful. I really am.

Of course I'm coming Sunday! Let's see, the grad ceremony starts at 6:30? Do you think I could follow you and your mom (+ any family, I guess) to the thing. 1)No idea where Ashley Hall is, and 2)I don't want to sit by myself. ):

And I am most definitely sticking around for the party!

We really do need to go to the beach. I think Rachel said something about a pool party at her house next Saturday? The GRAND OPENING PARTY!! Haha.

I love you too, and I'm so glad that we're going through, or have been through, so many similar things to where we can help each other out. And not get mad. (: <33

[tig_alicious]

Hey, I talked to my mom and got the particulars about graduation, and yes, you can follow my mom down to the school, but I'm not going to be with her. She and my brother are driving from my house, I'm going to be coming from the place my dad rented. But if you'd rather googlemap it or something and go it alone, they are perfectly willing to save you a seat with them. 'Cause yeah, I know that could potentially be very awkward.

I'll see you there!