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I've just been keeping mum the entire freakin' time, but I'm sure my actions reveal a lot about this. I'm really close to being fed up again... not to anyone in particular though.
What I really hate about this is that we have undergone sooooo many meetings about this for the past two weeks but I am not seeing any results. We've barely accomplished 30% of the entire work and I really hate it! Efficiency, man! Where is it? By now, according to my schedule, I should just be editing the freaking thing, but how the hell do you edit something that is yet to exist?! I am seriously pissed about this. Clearly, there is no E-F-F-I-C-I-E-N-C-Y and O-R-G-A-N-I-Z-A-T-I-O-N; there is also an evident lack of discipline. But never mind that. I do not care if there is a lack of those things as long as I see a progressive result, which obviously I do not see or I would not be ranting here instead of studying for my Advertising exam tomorrow.
Tomorrow morning, I will be there at exactly 9 and if by 9:15 I don't see anyone, and I receive a lot of freaking alibis, I'm walking out.
I seriously like the idea of this freaking thing, but if it cannot be executed properly, then it's a useless idea. I'm trying to be a useless leader when I am not even supposed to be one. What the freaking hell am I supposed to do?
And yes, I am taking this seriously. Why? Because it is my grade on the line. It is your grade on the line. It is our grade on the line. And just to be clear, I really hate disappointing people especially when they have expectations. Excuses are inexcusable for me, because I don't like being disappointed as well. Call me an uptight person because, hell yeah, I am one! I can be lax when time calls for it, but when it's time to be serious, I like everyone to be as well.
Oh, and I hate it when schedules are not being followed. It's my fault too for not speaking up because I fear taking over a role which is not mine, but boy do I regret not having spoken up.
I am overreacting. I admit to that. Why? Because I know I will be the most burdened one in the end (and I have no problems with that as long as I have the time, which right now is obviously slipping out of my grip). That's why.
Only one good thing for tonight:
It's my first time eating Cinnabon's rolls. They're expensive, and they're heaven... But that's a mutually exclusive thing. ;D
EDIT:
OMG. I lost control of myself. I'm calm now.
What I really hate about this is that we have undergone sooooo many meetings about this for the past two weeks but I am not seeing any results. We've barely accomplished 30% of the entire work and I really hate it! Efficiency, man! Where is it? By now, according to my schedule, I should just be editing the freaking thing, but how the hell do you edit something that is yet to exist?! I am seriously pissed about this. Clearly, there is no E-F-F-I-C-I-E-N-C-Y and O-R-G-A-N-I-Z-A-T-I-O-N; there is also an evident lack of discipline. But never mind that. I do not care if there is a lack of those things as long as I see a progressive result, which obviously I do not see or I would not be ranting here instead of studying for my Advertising exam tomorrow.
Tomorrow morning, I will be there at exactly 9 and if by 9:15 I don't see anyone, and I receive a lot of freaking alibis, I'm walking out.
I seriously like the idea of this freaking thing, but if it cannot be executed properly, then it's a useless idea. I'm trying to be a useless leader when I am not even supposed to be one. What the freaking hell am I supposed to do?
And yes, I am taking this seriously. Why? Because it is my grade on the line. It is your grade on the line. It is our grade on the line. And just to be clear, I really hate disappointing people especially when they have expectations. Excuses are inexcusable for me, because I don't like being disappointed as well. Call me an uptight person because, hell yeah, I am one! I can be lax when time calls for it, but when it's time to be serious, I like everyone to be as well.
Oh, and I hate it when schedules are not being followed. It's my fault too for not speaking up because I fear taking over a role which is not mine, but boy do I regret not having spoken up.
I am overreacting. I admit to that. Why? Because I know I will be the most burdened one in the end (and I have no problems with that as long as I have the time, which right now is obviously slipping out of my grip). That's why.
Only one good thing for tonight:
It's my first time eating Cinnabon's rolls. They're expensive, and they're heaven... But that's a mutually exclusive thing. ;D
EDIT:
OMG. I lost control of myself. I'm calm now.