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Buuuuh. My brain hurts. Today I worked on music composition stuff and theory homework for a long time. Staring at music notation for so long makes for no thinking. Every time I finish working on it I have no confidence in what I'm doing. I think this is partially because the program I'm using doesn't play back what I've written very well- the rhythm sometimes gets a little mussy, so the rhythmically interesting parts are not quite... interesting, and sound like a train wreck. I think I'm just nervous right now because I've put so much time into working it out over the past three-four weeks, so much that I'm pretty much failing one of my courses, and tomorrow a little after noon I get to show it to my professor and the class. Where it is a problem is that I've gotten really attached/obsessed with it that I don't think I can really handle any critiques. And it is the first edition of a form concept, so it can't be all perfect yet. Which I guess is reassuring. At least, the main parts are discernable.
Putting it into context of my class, everyone seems to be having trouble getting going or keeping going (where we have to have rough drafts for proofing done by next week) and I'm more gung-ho and can't find enough time to get it done. I guess this is good. Maybe it will help. The last time I presented my stuff, too, all I had was some charts and diagrams, and now I have 60 wonderful measures of uh, notes and stuff. But 60 quite dense measures, except in the middle part, where it loosens up a little bit.
Augh. I really feel like my professor is going to have the ability to make me burst into tears and run out of the classroom. But I luckily have a 10 mile long paper trail that if I question is asked, I can refer to a chart and say, "No, it is supposed to be this way. Unless you have a better suggestion." And that should be pretty entertaining I hope. Huh. Maybe she'll like it. O.o
Putting it into context of my class, everyone seems to be having trouble getting going or keeping going (where we have to have rough drafts for proofing done by next week) and I'm more gung-ho and can't find enough time to get it done. I guess this is good. Maybe it will help. The last time I presented my stuff, too, all I had was some charts and diagrams, and now I have 60 wonderful measures of uh, notes and stuff. But 60 quite dense measures, except in the middle part, where it loosens up a little bit.
Augh. I really feel like my professor is going to have the ability to make me burst into tears and run out of the classroom. But I luckily have a 10 mile long paper trail that if I question is asked, I can refer to a chart and say, "No, it is supposed to be this way. Unless you have a better suggestion." And that should be pretty entertaining I hope. Huh. Maybe she'll like it. O.o