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[yodelingsafari]

I really messed things up good this time.
I wasn't happy before and I am still not happy.
I don't know why I make the choices I do.
I just wanted to make him happy and I feel like I never can.
No matter what I do or how hard I try or how many things I buy.
I know this wasn't the answer.
Hes my best friend and I feel like thats all I am sometimes.
I just want to know he really cares for me.
I wish I didn't feel like he was always pushing me away.
We have so many things in common and I think thats why
we have gotten along for all these years.
I would never want to lose him as my friend.
I hate that if I am not happy that being friends
isn't enough for him.
I don't know what I should do.
I really do love him.
I just want to feel like he loves me.
I sure he does but I just wish he would show it.

I guess I just needed to get this off my mind.