trying to keep my chin up
i've been trying to keep a positive attitude lately and just keep going. i dont know if faking it, and not expressing how i truly feel is starting to get to me or what. i dont know. my mind is going in a hundred million directions. i hate work. i dont want to go, but i know i have to. i'm totally stressed out about when school starts... in order to keep my hours i'm going to have to work 7 days a week and i'm never gonna have a break, but i have a truck note and gas to worry about and i make like nothing. i'm worried about me just going nuts with the stress of nothing but school and work. i'm probably worrying about stuff that i dont need to worry about. i'm getting anxiety just thinking about it now. i feel so alone. i hate being alone. i want to pack up and move away from everyone and everything, not that anyone would care. ahh!!! what am i doing?!?!?!