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[yodaskater2468]

i want to start over...

im most likely going to drop out, i love the school, i just highly doubt their abilittie to get me a job, and it cost too much. i have another plan though, and it will work, and its more worth it, its called 2 jobs.

i need money, to start over, i need to pay off all debts.

i also feel like im floating... through life... and not doing the best i can...

i want a girl friend.
i want to hold hands in the park while we rest against eachother and listen to music each with one head phone in.
i want to have someone net to me wwhen i wake up.
i want the other side of my bed to not look new.
i want a reason to cook for more than just myself.
i want someone to drive around with, randomly.
i want someone to go on bike rides with.
i want someone to feel like i do, understand it, and be there with me to talk about it.
i want someone i can call at anytime.
i want someone that knocks on my window to tell me theyre here before they go through the door.
i want someone to eat the rest of the pack of popcorn when we watch a movie.
i want someone that motivates me to be a better person without complaining about the way i am already.

i want to feel alive again.