You really did make me happy
For those of you who don't know, I was recently testing a new way of dating someone. Too me the concept wasn't too far fetched; Don't attach too quickly, Don't claim each other as boyfriends untill that deeper connection is felt by both, Don't do anything sexual until you have claimed eachother. It seemed like a great idea, and finally after giving up on the search..... a seemingly great guy crossed paths into my life. In no time we were bonding, and soon after we were dating. I let him know from the beginning about my new stand on sex... and he claimed not to care and even said that he thought it was a good idea.
Behold, the first time I exclusively put my heart into someone and leave my body out of the equation, is the first time I get my heart broken. To date I have never been broken up with, I've always done the breaking up. It always happened soon after I had lost interest in the person. With everyone I dated the interest level dropped way too fast after sex was introduced, because those relationships were not built strong enough to withstand the complications that sex brings. I try to change this, and get kicked in my balls.
All I asked from you Andrew.... from the beginning, was for you to be nothing but honest with me, and I offered you the same in return. I held up my end of that deal, but you couldn't pay me that same respect.
It wasn't easy for me to not do anything sexual with you. The attraction was there.... I just chose to use my willpower to overcome the temptations. And once again, I told you that from the beginning and you told me you were fine with it.
Its not your fault that you lost interest, but the least you could have done is told me as soon as it happened.
I came into the relationship willingly knowing that you have done this to multiple boys in the past, but for some reason thought you would be different with me. And I don't know if you remember, but I specifically told you that if you did that to me... lost interest and continued to lead me on... that I would be soo angry with you.... and in turn that is what you have done.
So I guess its just back to "me time." Time for Matt Bell.....
Behold, the first time I exclusively put my heart into someone and leave my body out of the equation, is the first time I get my heart broken. To date I have never been broken up with, I've always done the breaking up. It always happened soon after I had lost interest in the person. With everyone I dated the interest level dropped way too fast after sex was introduced, because those relationships were not built strong enough to withstand the complications that sex brings. I try to change this, and get kicked in my balls.
All I asked from you Andrew.... from the beginning, was for you to be nothing but honest with me, and I offered you the same in return. I held up my end of that deal, but you couldn't pay me that same respect.
It wasn't easy for me to not do anything sexual with you. The attraction was there.... I just chose to use my willpower to overcome the temptations. And once again, I told you that from the beginning and you told me you were fine with it.
Its not your fault that you lost interest, but the least you could have done is told me as soon as it happened.
I came into the relationship willingly knowing that you have done this to multiple boys in the past, but for some reason thought you would be different with me. And I don't know if you remember, but I specifically told you that if you did that to me... lost interest and continued to lead me on... that I would be soo angry with you.... and in turn that is what you have done.
So I guess its just back to "me time." Time for Matt Bell.....