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Everyday day I feel like I'm on the brink of a complete breakdown. I'm an emotional bomb just waiting to explode...seriously. I have so much on my plate and I really need spring break to come, like, immediately. I have so many auditions and concerts to practice for but I can only practice for so long each day because my back hurts so bad from being so stressed. Granted, I only work three days a week, but those three days of busting my ass weighting tables, carrying HEAVY ass plates (I genuinly think I'm going to get carple tunnel from them they must weigh 5 or 6 pounds each after the food gets on there and I have to carry two in one hand plus one rested on my arm and one in the other hand), getting dirty looks and yelled at for things that are competely not my fault..its exhausting! I love it, and I love the money, but its exhausting! Waking up at 6 every morning and starting school at 6:50 makes things even worse because no matter how early I go to sleep, I'm still waking up at 6 and I'm still going to be exhausted. Then, I have all my reading for AP English which isn't that bad right now but still puts me in a horrible mood and then I have my stupid class at ASU. My midterm is on thursday and I can't figure out what the hell I've learned so far this semester (because I've literally learned nothing and been taugh nothing) so I don't know what to study, and I'm in such a bad mood I don't want to try to study anything. It just sucks. I feel like I shouldn't be stressed out but I really do have a lot on my plate. And stupidly enough, my room is really messy and so is my bathroom, but I have no time to clean them and that just makes me feel even worse. I hate that I'm exhausted but I can't go into my room to relax, I hate that my bathroom WAS clean but my sister came home for the weekend and somehow managed to completely trash the entire thing! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!, there were AIMS testing today so there were only classes in the afternoon but I have ASU in the afternoon so I couldn't go to Dobson. SO, I go to school to drop off my homework before ASU and I'm in a hurry so instead of parking in the only open space at the very back of the parking lot, I parked in the 30 min. visitor spot in the front row because, frankly, I was a visitor at the time and because I didn't have time to walk from the back of the parking lot. And of course, I was COMPLETELY harrassed when I tried to get on campus. The mother fucking parking ASS HOLES at dobson wouldn't even let me talk to explain my situation. Before I could even say hi, I was getting yelled at to move my car. The convo went pretty much like this...
"Why did you park in visitors?"
"Because I--"
"ARE YOU A VISITOR???"
"No but I--"
"THEN YOU NEED TO MOVE YOUR CAR"
"Ok, I'm only dropp--"
"MOVE YOUR CAR"
"I'm just--"
"REGULAR PARKING SPACE, NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"Ok well I don't have time I'm only--"
"THEN WE'RE GOING TO STICKER YOUR CAR"
"Thats fine I'd rather that than be late"
"IF YOU GET TO MANY STICKERS WE'LL MAKE IT SO YOU CAN'T PARK ON CAMPUS ANYMORE"
"ok" and I walked away.
and they stickered my car, wrote down my license plate number and reported me to campus police for supposedly being "disrespectful" even though I couldn't get two words out of my mouth to be disrespectful and for apparently "peeling out" of the parking lot when I left which is a COMPLETE lie. I don't even know where they got that from! Anyways, so they tried to make it so I can't park on campus anymore. I'm NOT EVEN KIDDING. What the fuck? Like honestly. That is the STUPIDEST thing I've ever heard! There is no reason to be that much of a stickler for the rules that you can't even let someone who's in a hurry park in a visitors spot for less than five minutes. Seriously..and then try and get them kicked out of the parking lot for the last quarter of their senior year? DOBSON IS FUCKING RETARDED! I can't take it anymore. I'm gonna start kicking some old man ass if they EVER talk to me again. On friday, they hunted me down in the parking lot and started yelling at me to not park in the carpool spot if I'm not going to carpool...but I do carpool. When I tried to explain the guy cut me off to tell me he's NEVER seen anyone else get out of the car with me...but I get to school A hour...and he's not there a hour!!! So how would he know? WHAT AN IDIOT!!! When I said that he just drove off in his stupid ass golf cart cuz he knew he was being an ass. They seriously need to find something better to do with their lives than harass high school students. how pathetic.
ANYWAYS.
Casey cheered me up. I called him to tell him I wasn't going to come over today because I was too stressed and too upset about being potentially suspended (not even kidding...the only reason they didn't suspend me is because my mom called to yell at them...my mom is good at that) for trying to park in visitors ... he was sad because we don't see each other often but he understood. Then at about 5:30 he showed up at my house with my favorite sub from Cheba hut..and he couldn't stay but he still drove all the way out to mesa to buy me a sandwich, give me a hug, and tell me he loves me. And he might come back later too. I can't remember the last time he drove all the way out here without me asking and for no other reason than to make me feel better. I know all of you in new relationships are thinking that thats how its supposed to work, but after 2 years things like that don't happen every time someone is upset or unhappy...especially not when you live 20 minutes away and gas costs your first born child. It was great to get a nice surprise from my man. :] he loves me <3
I need spring break. I need it SO badly. I need to sleep for a few days and go to california and sleep on the beach with mal and just CHILL OUT. Damn.
THEN!!!!!!!!!!!!, there were AIMS testing today so there were only classes in the afternoon but I have ASU in the afternoon so I couldn't go to Dobson. SO, I go to school to drop off my homework before ASU and I'm in a hurry so instead of parking in the only open space at the very back of the parking lot, I parked in the 30 min. visitor spot in the front row because, frankly, I was a visitor at the time and because I didn't have time to walk from the back of the parking lot. And of course, I was COMPLETELY harrassed when I tried to get on campus. The mother fucking parking ASS HOLES at dobson wouldn't even let me talk to explain my situation. Before I could even say hi, I was getting yelled at to move my car. The convo went pretty much like this...
"Why did you park in visitors?"
"Because I--"
"ARE YOU A VISITOR???"
"No but I--"
"THEN YOU NEED TO MOVE YOUR CAR"
"Ok, I'm only dropp--"
"MOVE YOUR CAR"
"I'm just--"
"REGULAR PARKING SPACE, NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"Ok well I don't have time I'm only--"
"THEN WE'RE GOING TO STICKER YOUR CAR"
"Thats fine I'd rather that than be late"
"IF YOU GET TO MANY STICKERS WE'LL MAKE IT SO YOU CAN'T PARK ON CAMPUS ANYMORE"
"ok" and I walked away.
and they stickered my car, wrote down my license plate number and reported me to campus police for supposedly being "disrespectful" even though I couldn't get two words out of my mouth to be disrespectful and for apparently "peeling out" of the parking lot when I left which is a COMPLETE lie. I don't even know where they got that from! Anyways, so they tried to make it so I can't park on campus anymore. I'm NOT EVEN KIDDING. What the fuck? Like honestly. That is the STUPIDEST thing I've ever heard! There is no reason to be that much of a stickler for the rules that you can't even let someone who's in a hurry park in a visitors spot for less than five minutes. Seriously..and then try and get them kicked out of the parking lot for the last quarter of their senior year? DOBSON IS FUCKING RETARDED! I can't take it anymore. I'm gonna start kicking some old man ass if they EVER talk to me again. On friday, they hunted me down in the parking lot and started yelling at me to not park in the carpool spot if I'm not going to carpool...but I do carpool. When I tried to explain the guy cut me off to tell me he's NEVER seen anyone else get out of the car with me...but I get to school A hour...and he's not there a hour!!! So how would he know? WHAT AN IDIOT!!! When I said that he just drove off in his stupid ass golf cart cuz he knew he was being an ass. They seriously need to find something better to do with their lives than harass high school students. how pathetic.
ANYWAYS.
Casey cheered me up. I called him to tell him I wasn't going to come over today because I was too stressed and too upset about being potentially suspended (not even kidding...the only reason they didn't suspend me is because my mom called to yell at them...my mom is good at that) for trying to park in visitors ... he was sad because we don't see each other often but he understood. Then at about 5:30 he showed up at my house with my favorite sub from Cheba hut..and he couldn't stay but he still drove all the way out to mesa to buy me a sandwich, give me a hug, and tell me he loves me. And he might come back later too. I can't remember the last time he drove all the way out here without me asking and for no other reason than to make me feel better. I know all of you in new relationships are thinking that thats how its supposed to work, but after 2 years things like that don't happen every time someone is upset or unhappy...especially not when you live 20 minutes away and gas costs your first born child. It was great to get a nice surprise from my man. :] he loves me <3
I need spring break. I need it SO badly. I need to sleep for a few days and go to california and sleep on the beach with mal and just CHILL OUT. Damn.