Being off work makes you think.. too much..
I've been so afraid of things to come. For a while I thought I was so unhappy with the way things were going in my life that I started to express my usual tendencies aka pushing everyone away. I thought things would get better if I had this person out of my life. But as it turns out, I want him to be a part of it more than I've ever imagined. A big part of me knows that I'll never be able to tell him exactly how I feel. One day, maybe. I know it has to be said. I just don't want to be the first to bring it up.
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